I had the dream a few nights ago. I was in my brother’s room, and my mother comes in and starts telling me all these strange rules and restrictions I’ll have from then on. A while later, I realized that I had told her I was suicidal, and instead of trying to heal me, she wanted to tie my hands so I couldn’t do it. That’s when I knew that if I told anyone in my real life that I was planning this, they’d stop me and hold me down until I couldn’t breathe.
So I can’t tell anyone. If I did, I would have made my mind up and killed myself shortly after, so they couldn’t stop me.
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Email me if you need it mate:
brl.cents@gmail.com
We can talk.
That sucks. What about anonymous support media (e.g., hotlines, emails, even text nowadays is available)?
Also, your folks might surprise you. They can’t stop you forever. They might be supportive.
I thought my telling the truth would end more or less the same it did for you in your dream. I was wrong. My folks did surprise me. They do not really understand me, they are not the sort of people I would have chosen to my own ‘pack’. But they did care, they did help, they were compassionate.
Tell them. You are diseased, being suicidal is an illness. You deserve to be treated with care and respect, like the deeply wounded person you are. Your injuries are not visible, so you really need to inform the people closest to you about your suffering.
Do it, tell them. Trust me, good things will come of it.