Tired

I have now reached the point where I feel like I’m at the end of my rope. I am absolutely exhausted with trying to pretend that I am ok. I have had these intense feelings of loneliness and sadness lately and they are starting to become consuming. I have tried talking to everyone I know, but no one seems to understand. They tell me its just a phase or that things will get better just “try to be positive” (like I haven’t been trying). I have tried self medicating but the effects are only temporary.I tried cutting, but it just made me feel worse about myself. Why would I let myself get to a point where I would do that to my own body? It intensified my feelings of loneliness and self-loathing. I feel worthless, alone, and empty. Every time I manage to pick myself up a little bit I slip right back down into the whole. I seems like and endless pattern and I am starting to feel completely hopeless. I wish I had someone to lean on, but I am completely alone. I can no longer see the joy in life and I am beginning to doubt my purpose here at all. I am trying to find a way to finally pull myself out of this once and for all….I am so tired of feeling this way.