Hi, some of you may remember me, some may not, I am Rogue, the one who wanted so badly to join the army. well I had gone through the Military Entrance Processing Station. I did my oath and signed a bunch of papers pledging my loyalty. Little did I know that, until this night at around 9 pm, my mom informed me that there is little to no chance of quitting the army. After a quick 10 seconds of tears as I am having trouble letting them flow, and a few breaths of hyper-ventillation, I realize how fucked I really am. Now there are quite a few things buzzing through my head (consisting of: offing myself would escape that fate, letting myself join and potentially dying there, or by some miracle find a loophole such as a mental illness [besides insanity plea, I dont want to be locked up] or some other disability to free me, also how my life will pan out from there, my training regime that i need to start doing, my long-distance online relationship with a girl I met on Black Ops 2, this thirst and hunger that i forgot about, the all nighter i pulled the other night, my intact virginity, Ashley breaking up with me as soon as i join boot camp).
All kinds of things pop into my head and I have to sort them out and attempt to dislodge them and deal with them. this brought me here to rant on about how I need to fix this problem and deal with it and possibly get some insight on the situation besides the obvious “you”re fucked now buddy”. And here I was planning out how I would get my braces back on, get a job, go to community college, wait for ashley to graduate high school and go to college and then live happily ever after.
great time to think comically about this situation and think about ways to laugh it off as a sticky situation in the future. Oh the joys the future will bring me. Ashley said shes leaving me on my ship out date August 20th and we’ll see if we could be together after that whole ordeal… Especially with almost no means of talking to one another. I giess I’ll end here and hope and pray to this vile creature called God to save me from this messenger of hell.
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Hey Rogue; So you joined the Army. This isn’t the end of the world. 4 years seems like an awfully long time when you’re 18, but it’s not. The 4 years will seem like an eternity at times, but it’ll pass by. You’ll have adventures that you’ll remember for a lifetime. You’ll meet new people, you’ll see stuff and do things you never could have seen or done if you had stayed home. You’ll travel, you’ll get away from your parents, you’ll be self sufficient.
It’s part of growing up. Try to think of this as a learning experience, a stage of your development. Who knows, you might actually like it. Give it a chance before you decide that you hate it. Going to college isn’t for everyone, at least you’re doing something with your life. Good Luck, Rogue.
Hello cosmic thanks for the positive thinking, anything right now will help me or even hurt me. I need to accept my fate and get through this. I’m just worried about it all.
Aye killer joining the army is not the end.
Not all soldiers get sent to the frontlines right off the bat. What’d you score on the asvap? That thing is easier than the CAHSEE. Listen Rogue. You cannot get out of this unless you die, are dishonorably discharged, or are wounded in action and receive an honorable discharge. You’ll probably be stationed at a base in low threat area. This is not the end. While you’re in the army learn some skills. Rank up maybe walk out an E4 or better more pay! ;D You will make it through it. You get an honorable discharge and you get momey for college and veteran benefits. I promise you this is the end. I know because I’m AtTheEnd :3 ha get it?
If anything don’t kill yourself because she will miss you and don’t run because you will be court marshalles and this country does not forgive running from your armed forces comittment. Your options are stick it out or dishonorable discharge or death. Death is mot an option because you want to make a life for yourself and with her.
She said my shipout date is when she breaks up with me. Her parents dont want ger to be getting mail from me and she can’t just go through the excruitiatingly long ritual of sitting around every month waiting for a letter to come in.
I told her yesterday as she was contemplating breaking up. I said,” theres a 95% chance of me not killing myself if you break up with me. I’m so bent out of shape about the army that it’s a 60% chance of me not suiciding. I have been having trouble sleeping all night. The other night I didn’t sleep on purpose so I could sleep tonight and fix my sleeping schedule. Now I’m royally fucked.
I’m not sure if I’ll fall asleep a few more times or wait until 9am to go on that run. I’m a fatass, I didn’t exercise at all and would eat quite a bit. Now I’m legitimately fat. I’m afraid to join the army now with my excess weight.
I probably shouldn’t make the mistake of using a long-distance relationship for me to find love and live together forever when we never met, but that tends to be the only way I bond with someone. I apparently attract other suicidal people for some reason too. I guess online would be the worst place to meet someone.
If you are over weight the army wont take you. Duhhh
And ouch thats hurtful on her part but understandable. Sadly theres a stogmatization right now that if you join you’re gonna get shipped to the middle east and die. We don’t keep the same units for their whole tours in the same spot. They get rotated out and you do know we’re slowly but largely withdrawing. Still there but on out way out.
I could claim I am homosexual. That could get me discharged, if the commander believes me. People have told me (playing video games) I sound like I’m gay. It’s a possibility.
No, they’ll put me in rehab and weigt and dist programs for several months before giving up.
Damn :L well damn yeah the gay thing might work.
Wait why cant you just do your service? And ewwwwww you met a girl on black ops 2? Gross how could either of you olay that shit.
Eh I have trouble around people and well like any other person you get close to someone over time