So until recently I’ve been showing minor signs of Catatonic Schizophrenia. If you dont know what that is, Catatonic schizophrenia is a type (or subtype) of schizophrenia that includes extremes of behavior. Regular schizophrenia is one of many brain diseases that may include delusions, loss of personality (flat affect), confusion, agitation, social withdrawal, psychosis, and bizarre behavior.
I started showing signs and its freaking me out. I’ve begun to see shadows that stay longer than normal, and I’ve been hearing unfamiliar voices call my name. The shadows want to hurt me but they wont leave me alone. Its been getting harder to concentrate and complete my thoughts (you have no idea how long it took me to write this and i have to have a friend look it over so i dont mess it up). I dont move much, even when im in an uncomfortable position, and I’m started to get less sleep than normal. And breakdowns that cause me to laugh and cry while harming myself have been increasing. Im starting to mix up words and repeat some. Worst of all, even the tiniest ruffle of noise can send me into a deep panic.
I even took  a test online to see if i was just being me, but i got a score of 104 and a normal score is 15-65…
I cant get help because no one would believe me…
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I have paranoid schizophrenia and no one believes me either.. if they do they will lock you up. But a therapist would believe you.. there are some anti-psychotics which can help the shadows and voices disappear. You don’t have to tell your parents just go yourself to a psychiatrist and tell them the symptoms. Don’t let yourself into a downfall, that’s what happened to me.. was delusional for almost a year.. better to get help when it’s just starting.
Thank you for the advice! Im sorry to hear about your schizophrenia though…
Hi, I was diagnosed with symtoms of schitzophrenia at 16, I have been to doctors but they never seem to really talk about things they usually just say what they have to say and write out the prescription and are ready to send me on my way. I am paranoid about ghosts and other things in the dark so I can never live alone the rest of my life, I hear people calling my name and conversations I cant understand between people even tho no one is around ,I see shadows and also smell bad things other people cant. What you said about not moving even if your not comfortable..i do that ..I didn’t know that was a symptom of it, I have had to go to the emergency room in the past because I wouldn’t want to move when my legs started hurting from siting on them and I would stay like that for hours and I would get so sore from it I could harldy walk. I just always thought it was a bad habit, do you think I do that because of schitzophrenia stuff?
Dez: are you getting professional help?
If I’m not wrong, I think schizophrenia is the worst mental disorder there is? Once you get slapped into a full-blown schizophrenia you might undergo a complete shattering of personality and dissociation from reality, or so I’ve read in scientific books.
You need to grip reality. Don’t lose it. Talk to your trusted ones, confide in them. But most of all schizophrenia branches off from a deep lodged feeling, usually guilt, of a bad past or childhood, and your brain has decided to shut it off rather than confront it.
I wish to hear more from you Dez, please keep posting here. Good luck for you. Remember all of us on this site are also battling pain everyday and we will always listen.
Be strong.
Yes actually i had researched about schizophrenia and that was one of the symptoms
Thank you. And i wish i could get help but i cant because no one would believe me and just brush it off as me being weird. Im trying very hard to remind myself its fake but its getting harder and harder…thank you so much much for the advice guys