Tonight I am going to be commuting suicide by getting run over by a train. Nothing has ever gone right in my life and i just can’t handle living this life like this. I’ve tried to change but nothing helped and things just got worse and worse. I have finally gotten the courage to do it and I won’t have any regrets.
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Even in a suicidal mindset, clever enough to throw in the “commuting suicide by train”. =). It’s not worth it bro. Your not your average joe, you are tough, you can perservere, you can find a way. I promise you if you have the balls to stand in front of that train, there will be a split second of regret, right before you die. It would hurt me and others very much if you faced that split second and then died there on the train tracks. Someone in my town jumped in front of a train 2 days ago. Right off the platform, right in front of his girlfriend. PLease realize you will be doing so much damage that will never be repaired. You can repair what you have now. You will never come back from that train.
OK, you’ve missed the point.
I’m not easily annoyed, but you’ve done it. You are not here for the right reasons.
Anyone else?
IF i was a piece of shit, I would keep it up. But I’m respectful, I’ve had someone kill themself, and that made me want to do it to. So I post here to hopefully make one or two other people be able to avoid that feeling. But fine, I don’t belong here, I knew you would all feel like that. I care about you people, I don’t know you or your families or anything. I just know what it feels like, so if you want these feelings for yourself and your loved ones, then do what you need to do to kill yourselves. I promise you though, it’s not going to be worth eliminating everything, just for something. How is anything worth sacrificing EVERYTHING?
and the person from the train is not even the friend im talking about. he was just the catalyst that made me search online for a site like this.
Please define “everything”
Train just seems far too violent and potentially torturous. What if you “miss?” What if you just end up horribly disfigured and survive?
I live not far from tracks, and when the trains come through blowing their horns, my dog finds this extremely important and must howl along, until it passes… which is the cutest, most adorable thing ever. He never howls for any other reason. So when i think of trains, i think of my dog… and how he would be affected if i just didn’t come back one day. People can understand, reason and cope, but dogs you’ve raised since birth, will be completely lost, and spend the rest of their days carrying the burden you couldn’t, waiting for a day that never comes to bring your return.
Tangent, sorry.
Idk. Being destroyed by a train has got to be a pretty horrible experience. I would not recommend it.
WHen I considered suicide, I often thought of the train. If you jump in front of it, yes, messy as fuck and maybe you would survive (5%). IF you lay your neck across one of the sides of the track though, you will surely be decapitated, and I promise you will not survive that.
I agree – my mortal thought was alcoholic poisoning: I figured that I’d either die or be OK. Couldn’t cope with the thought of being a vegetable, or even worse; a truly thinking being in the body of a hopeless uncommunicative wreck.
“everything” would be: the air you breathe, the other inhabitants of this planet, the thoughts you think, the food you eat, the sex you have, family, socks. I don’t know how else to describe it, but no amount of pain is worth giving up all that could fix that pain.
but no amount of pain is worth giving up “everything”* that could fix that pain.
You sound religious.
The air that I breathe is tainted even when I don’t smoke.
The people I meet want what I can do, not me.
The best food I can eat is made by me.
I am a sexual addict – no woman can keep pace with me. I googled it & found “sexual addicts” that were merely doing in a week what I demand in a day.
I have no family.
I rarely wear socks.
I hardly sleep, but when I do I don’t hurt so long as I don’t dream. I’m lucky to get more than three hours in any 24 Hour period – I don’t sleep nights.
People around here are ugly and stupid – they make you feel small to make themselves feel better.
“Everything” is nothing – especially when you find a candle just to have it snuffed by everyone who wants whatever you’ve got.
@ifoundyouandme I appreciate what you are trying to do. Just wanted to say that. It’s good to hear from the perspective of one who has lost someone to suicide. I rarely think of how others would be affected if I died, as my family are the only people currently in my life. I thought that while they might be sad for a short time that they’d eventually get over it, as I haven’t been of much use to them nor do I have any accomplishments to make them consider me as anything more than a failure. However, I thought about how I would feel if I discovered one of my teenage siblings had committed suicide… I would be absolutely devastated. I would have wanted to tell them that there IS more to life than what they’ve experienced, and to hold on because they’re still young and anything could happen. And if I killed myself… maybe it would take away a lot of that hope for them. No matter how much suffering I endure, my death would mean much more to my siblings than I imagine. I would prefer to die from natural causes, because at least then it wouldn’t be so traumatic to hear about.
Getting steam rolled by train is a helluva way to die. Its not 100% what if you get scared and jump at the last moment but a moment too late and you amputate some limbs and have to bleed out slowly and painfully. I’m all for an individuals choice but unnecessary mutilation will cause you more pain than needed. I recommend finding another way. I read about attempted train suicides and “train hoppers” who ended up removing a limb or two but living. Don’t put yourself in a worse condition than you are in now.
My job sometimes involves traveling. Whenever I’m waiting for a train, I always walk to the edge of the platform and it crosses my mind. There’s never any intention to jump in. Hanging around suicide suicide sites for a long time can do that to a person.
Some of the stories I’ve read were of kids, teenage girls that jump in front of high speed trains. When I think about that person, the main thing I consider is that, to do that, something terrible must have happened to them.