I didn’t end up doing it. I’ve found something to distract me for the time being. However, the device is ready and waiting for me. Hopefully I can keep my head out of the water long enough to get sick of it being in my house. It is a modified exit bag… worthy of mass production and custom color options.
Hope Monday isn’t getting the best of anyone.
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Distractions are just that ……distractions…..I know what you mean though I have used the same strategy to get the thoughts out of my head for a second. However, I know that suicide is inevitable for me. These distractions are only temporary fixes….when a pipe busts from too much pressure you use duct tape. It may work for the time being but the issue is still there and eventually it busts again and you may be able to tape it again but eventually you run out of tape.
I came quite close to ending it today. A part of me wants to live and a part of me wants to die. I’m really not sure what I’ll do or what will happen in the time to come. I wish you luck with whatever you choose.
Seeing the future could be nice. Then I could find out if I’m just waiting around for disappointment.
The distraction ran out… eff