I’m so ready to be done with it. I’ve got my setup just waiting for me to go peacefully into the quiet dark. It calls to me every night. This feeling in my chest physically hurts me and my brain is simply exhausted. But my plan calls on me to wait.
If I do it right, I’ll help a lot of people in the process. Until December, it’s just building up my savings so I’ll have something worthwhile to leave behind and cover my expenses. I don’t think I’ll be able to wait until then. I’m trying to be considerate to those who have to clean up after me so I spent this morning packing and preparing. Many things become so useless. Other things I realize someone else will have a much better appreciation or use for. It actually takes my mind off of things and makes me feel happy to be able to give back. It’ll be like Christmas… but awful =( I wish I could take their pain with me too.
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I’m playing the waiting game too I have no good method of suicide available. I have to wait until I can get access to a tall building and hope I’ve got the nerve to cast myself off. I’ve tried hanging but that’s awful hard to do around here without being caught in the act.
Big thing about planning for suicide though- make plans in case your attempt does not work! I mean, don’t give away all your money and resources. As I’ve said many times before my body has proved to be as resilient as a cochroach. I always anticipate that in spite of my best efforts my suicide attempt will tragically fail. As they say hope for the best and plan for the worst.
The “if I fail” part is why I have to wait so long. I’ve picked a time where I’m not expected at work for a long time. I could potentially return as if nothing has changed without fear of starting completely over career wise.
Also, I’d be more inclined to talk to someone but pretty much everyone has an obligation to have a suicidal person committed… especially if it were something they couldn’t be talked out of. I’d do the same so I don’t blame them.
It’s a pretty solid plan but I’m trying to also donate my organs which means my timing has to be perfect… my biggest fear is becoming a vegetable.
So have you planned yours out?
donating organs.. That’s a good idea. Difficult to arrange though. the only way to screw up hanging is if somebody ‘rescues’ you while you are passed out. Only then is there potential of brain damage. That’s why I’m doing it in the woods alone at night where nobody will find me. Location is important.
For SWIM its guna be Semi-suspension hanging in the woods hell yes ************!
If it’s worth killing yourself it’s worth doing it right! Don’t let nobody find me.
SWIM’S guna buy a half quarter of Shrooms half quarter of skunk pack a nice picnic spend the whole day in the forest & exit this plane of existence while gazing @ the Northern Lights around midnight.
Yeah, I’m concerned I’ll be discovered before hand and be a complete waste to society. I’ll be in the woods way far out in a snow bank keeping my organs nice and chill. Confusing or concealing my tracks will take all day. I’ll set a timer to go off where the instructions are to find me are after about a half hour has passed. It’s risky. I keep going back and forth.