Getting worse

I’m starting to think again that maybe I should kill myself.
I’m feeling that my illusions and barriers are breaking down.
It’s becoming more apparent that this isn’t real.
Nothing is real, it’s all just a movie playing inside my head.
I’m feeling increasingly numb to the idea of swallowing a cup of pills.
It dosn’t scare me.
I think it would be a great way to die.
Waves of delusion washing through my body and a simple conclusion.
It’s not real, none of this is real.
Escape the game, leave it all behind.
It’s coming back, the feelings and the thoughts.
The getting worse.