I’m sorry I fell so hard. I know I’m not good enough, that I’ll never be. I get that now. And it fucking sucks. Because you know what? I’ll never be good enough for you. I’ll never be good enough.
My hopes got so fucking high. Hope sucks, because it just makes your fall that much further. And I hate falling. I try to hate you, I try not to mind you, I try! I promise! I’m trying so fucking hard to get over you, but I can’t because I’m not strong enough. Fuck.
How can one person intensify my suicidal thoughts by that much? It hurts so bad. I know i’ll get hurt, but I keep hoping, keep crawling back to you, hopping you’ll take me in. Hoping you’ll see my damaged should and help me repair it.
Why the fuck do I have to be so insecure? Why do I have to be so easy to hurt? So utterly damager. Fuck.
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I know how you feel, i used to know a girl, Faith, i dont wanna explain what happened but it was the same as what happened to you. but we didnt talk in 3 years now
Yes, you are strong. And you will get up. You are good enough.
And you should think if that person hurts you more than makes you happy then cut it out. You deserve better. Someone who won’t make you feel like that.
^^^ Exactly. Instead of causing yourself pain by thinking about all the good times, etc. Try to focus on the things you were most annoyed by, or the things they did to piss you off, or to intentionally hurt you.
Your depression will turn to anger, disgust, and eventually acceptance.
I was in a really bad situation when I got out of a 5 year relationship, I bought the rope, wrote the notes, and sat in front of her house for hours trying to get the courage to do it.
Eventually I stopped focusing on the pain, and I was able to move on. If I can do it, as weak as I am, than you can do it. I promise. <3
Besides, alone or in a relationship, life blows either way. :/