I’m young. People don’t generally understand how a young person with so much life left ahead of them could be depressed. Some say it’s just puberty, some say it’s hormones. I know what both of those feel like, and they are nothing compared to the grasp depression can have on you. It takes hold of you, and no matter how hard you try to fight it so you can breathe again, it leaves you empty and without energy. I come from a good family. Parents are together, no one close to me has been taken away. And still… it is so hard to be happy. Not even my closest of friends understand. Nor will they try to. They have had so many problems: abuse, addictions, absent parents. That is all damaging, but at least people can see what hurt them and feel sympathy. What do I get? Nothing. “It’s all in your head,” they say. “If you do this thing, everything will work out,” others badger. Nothing works, nothing helps. When you are hurting, and no one cares enough to help you because there “seems to be nothing wrong”… that just isn’t fair. No person can understand that pain. Not a single one.
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I know….
I have been dealing with the same stuff, I am going to start jogging 30 minutes a day, they say the chemicals “endorphins” in your body will balance out your brain chemistry serotonin if you exercise daily.
Perhaps I am not as young as you now, however I definitely think that I could have related to you growing up. To be honest, sometimes the people you are around and live with lead you to believe that everything is “alright” when it really isn’t.
You’ll find friends who won’t understand what is wrong with your life because all they see is their pain.. and when they’re in that state, it’s not possible for them to see how anything you face is more damaging than what they do.
On the other hand, there will be adults in your life who think that you’re too young to be “depressed” because they know you still have a long journey ahead of you – which is going to be full of many more hardships which are by far more challenging. And in that respect, it’s fair. But to a kid, the smallest things can seem like the end of the world.. because at that stage, those are the things which seem hardest to get through and I think as we grow up, perhaps we lose a bit of empathy towards the younger generation.
Of course I don’t know your full situation but it seems like you think that you should be happy given your situation. However, perhaps you need to give it a re-evaluation. If I were to pinpoint a problem given the above description, I’d say it’s your friends:
“Not even my closest of friends understand. Nor will they try to. They have had so many problems..”
you’re sharing all of their baggage and problems too.. if they feel upset 10/10 times you see them, chances are you’re going to feel unhappy 10/10 times you’re with them as well as when you’re not with them (that is if you truly care about these people).
Hope brighter days find you soon.
I totally understand you…I feel that too….they don’t understand..they think I have a wonderful life, and am just too free and so have these thoughts in my head.But one thing is true, it feels a lot better if you don’t expect them to understand.