So tomorrow is my 16th , and I think it’s the perfect time to start the beginning of my end. I will stop eating for the most part, it’s already pretty no eating but I will cut when I need to, I will drink or do whatever I must do to numb the pain until one day I won’t have to be here, I hope that day is soon.
I reach out for help
Everyone leaves
My mind is a blurr
Repressed memories
Where is my heart
All my emotion
Where is my drive
My love and devotion
“A drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me
Might end up together”
I want to cut so bad
Watch the blood run down
Dripping on the floor
When nobody’s around
You slashed my heart
And slaughtered my soul
I felt complete with you
You made me whole
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I understand. I’ve been there so many times that I’m numb to it now, except for a dull ache. You do have a heart. You are real. You can feel. You can care. Some people are like mannequins. You are not.
You are blessed with a living heart and cursed by the pain that heart can feel.
But you are 16, with so much ahead of you. I’d say wait another 10 years to make certain you still feel the same. Teen years and emotions and hormones are hard to survive. Get through them, then see how life turns out. You might actually be better off without this person whom you think ‘completes’ you. Instead, that person might simply bring out a vision of how complete you are within yourself.
Don’t waste your young life yet. Please.
You’re young! Just try to move on 🙂 If you want to talk or chat, my skype id is: chocolaty_boy
You’re 16. Give yourself time.
I love that song… you quoted from. It brought tears to my eyes.
You’re beautiful and have your whole life ahead of you.. at least wait til after you turn 21 to seriously kill yourself. When I was your age I thought it was the end, but it was just the beginning. You have bad days… but there are some good days too.
Happy birthday.
I know it is cliche but every one starts at the beginning of the end. No one makes it out alive, so to speak. But question if 16 years enough? Not just for you but for those in the world who have read your posts, and worried for you and about you?
You have a beautiful smile.
u are a very beautiful girl and although that may not matter to how u feel inside dont ever let anyone tell u ur not just as beautiful inside
everyone who says your to young to feel how you feel are wrong. age is not a factor when it comes to pain, but if i could take your pain and mine i wish i could, but maybe thats exactly what this site does
I didn’t say you are too young to feel this way. I know how you feel. For me, it started at 16 too when the guy I thought I was in love with gave his class ring to someone else.
I simply hope you’ll wait for life to settle a bit, live a bit longer, before you make a forever decision.
My kik is devinx7 if you need to talk