Yesterday I had my evalution, about what I think if this therapy (MDFT) and how I’m doing. To make a lobg story short: everything is much more clear for me (NOT). I don’t know if I’m going to stop the MDFT right now, I don’t know if we’ll finish the MDFT later. The only thing I know is that they want that I get EMDR for my trauma, because they realized I do have a trauma. (Noo, are you serious? I didn’t knew that already! I’ve told you months ago!) But I don’t know where or when I’ll start with EMDR. Somewhere I really hope that I’ll leave this stupid institution, that doesn’t listen to the patient. On the other hand I don’t want to go to another institution, because then I have to tell the whole stupid story again. But probably I won’t have a choice, but I’m glad my therapist sees that I do have a trauma and that I’m not some kind of attentionseeker. I don’t know if I should be happy with all of this, but I’m relieved my therapy is going to change.
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i read your mind and words but only you know best and what is i wish you luck dont let any1 tell you what your reality is you are the master of the youniverse fk them what do they know unless they are spiritual gods that understand life and death and have a wisdom lvl of 99999 they are fkin puppets in a system that drug others and think they know best but really they are the ignorant fools that lack compassion and wisdom i love you and hope u find yourself godbless <3
@inf1n1,
Thanks for your reply. The whole problem is that my therapists think they know what the best is for me and they don’t listen to me. If I tell them I’m really suicidal and that there are only a few small things that keep me alive, they just look at me and say: ‘okay, well, that’s not nice for you.’ And after that they don’t do a fcking thing with it. I really hope it’s going to change soon, or otherwise I’m totally done with it…
they seem like the typical therapists who won’t believe anything from their patients just because they have, well… “issues”, so until they really prove to themselves, or see by themselves the extent of your problems (which they should have done already), they do little or take everything with a grain of salt… imho they don’t sound like competent professionals… if they don’t help you in the long run maybe it wouldn’t be such a bad idea to look into others (even if you have to tell your story again).
@kf,
Oh, I know sure they are not competent professionals (long story, believe me). At least, it feels like they are not. But anyhow, the problem with looking for another institution is that I constantly have ‘issues’ with big institutions. Ofcourse you have the smaller (private) institutions, but they don’t accept me, because my problems are to complex for them (probably it’s also to complex for the bigger institutions 😛 ). Besides that there is a long waitinglist everywhere, the average is 3 months. So changing is like not a good choice too, I think there isn’t a good choice actually…
At least they don’t see you as an atention seeker anymore, that is a welcome change i guess (and a small advancement)