Its been too long aince i last posted. Last time we talked, I whined about how I was panicking about joining the army. I’m currently inthe army and gained access to y phone.
Now then, I finished basic training, got to shoot an M-16, and rarely thought about shooting myself in the face. Anywho, I am hiding the fact that I am prone to emotional disorders as I suspect the depression to come back to me A.S.A.P. I have come to realize that joinin the army has given me a snese of accomplishment as I have graduated basic training
As a soldier, the army has made me devote all my time, energy, and thoughts to support my occupation here, it has benefited me positively in many ways. It payse 1500 a month. I get this pay to work out, how many of you can say you get paid to work out? Its a good way to stay in a job although there are lots of soldier getting kicked from the army nowadays. The best thing is I don’t have to worry about my depressive thoughts creeping up on me while I focus on all the aspects of the army. Normally if it didnt require me to devote my time on the army i would count down the days until christmas break which is on the 20th when i go back to California.
The army life is crazy, and I am now somewhat more disciplined and reserved. Its a geeat opportunity. If you want to keep yourself away from your depression all you gotta do is stay focused on things yoh enjoy (or takes up your time and you can commit to it) and wait out Your depression. I hope some familiar faces are still on here since its awful without you all.
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That’s cool. I’d join the military if I had the physical stamina and health for it. (At least, I’d try it for a while.) I hope everything works out for you.
I remember being here when you were worried about going into the army. I’m glad that things worked out for you and got better.
I wasnt here back then, but glad to see someome is doing well.
At 47 like I am, options become less and less.
I honestly feel the young folks on here have the real opportunity, its sad to see them think of suicide.
When you get to be in my position, its really the only option.
Outstanding job, Private.
I remember you from a while back and I am glad you followed through with this dream of yours. So, hows it feel to wear the ACU? To apply SPORTS to your rifle? And have a sense of accomplishment when you and your Platoon achieve an objective together?
Wherebouts are you getting posted? If you end up with the 25th Infantry out of Schofield Barracks in Hawaii, you might end up coming on Exercise down here in NZ and possibly bump into me.
Anyway, I’m glad you followed your dream, and after 17.5 weeks at my Basic, I can understand the way you might feel. It’s funny you post now, since I’m suppose to be getting out this week.
Hoo-ah, soldier. Make the most of it.
Welcome back Rouge, new here.
My step-son was depressed before joining the Army. It really did help him, he’s even been thinking of buying a house now and starting a family. Did 4 tours in Iraq and Afganistan, might be heading out for another. But if he gets through it and can make it another 8 years he gets his pension for life. At least he now thinks about the future.
1500 us dollars a month?
Life is not so fucking fair.
Good for you, Rogue. I was in Oxnard last Friday and I was wondering what ever happened to you. I joined the military right after high school. Served four years and hated it while I was in, but looking back on it after I got out, it wasn’t so bad. Hopefully you’ll have some memorable adventures, the time goes by fast. Good luck.
Yay, i dont know you, but its good to have you back on!!
have a good day! 🙂 😀
Oxnard? That sounds like a place mentally-handicapped oxes go to die or something. Thank goodness I don’t have to put that in my mailing address.
Rogue; stay strong, man – it sounds like you’re getting some grounding from service, and that’s never a bad thing. 🙂
^ hehehe. I used to think it sounded like an oxen’s reproductive parts.
It’s a city about 55 miles northwest of Los Angeles, right on the coast. It’s a nice place with near perfect weather.
Haha never thought of it like that but yeah the weather there is amazing never too hot never too cold. I’m currently in fort lee Virginia learning to be a 91Bravo wheeled vehicle mechanic
@RogueLonesome: I remember you as well. The person with the great name xD. Anywho ACU’s are great albeit they got really hot while out in the sun in Fort Jackson due to the schorching hot weather (not really scorching unless you do PT it end up feeling like it) I’ve gotten a lot of stuff down to muscle memory, I slap the magazine every time it jams and if the bullet gets lodged in the barrel i tend to look in the chamber slam the buttstock down on a hard surface and dislodge it quickly without thinking. I wish I could have zeroed my weapon again or gotten a new rifle to take the marksmanship test so i could get more than 25 out of 40 targets but i digress.
On the last day after graduation we said our goodbyes sang cadences loud and proud and it was truly spectacular watching the other platoon do push-ups in front of our parents as they laughed and pushed. It was a great day.
Hi Rogue; Yeah, once you leave SoCal you’ll realize how spoiled you were growing up there. The rest of the country is cold in the winter, hot in the summer, and 2/3rds of it is humid. Good luck trying to find decent Mexican food outside of “paradise”. (Ain’t happening).
I think you’ve done well, Rogue. It’ll be good to get away from your childhood home/environment for a few years. You won’t be forced to go to church anymore, but you might be ordered to get a haircut occasionally.
All the best, soldier.
Haircuts are no big deal, church never a big deal anymore.
Yeah it seems like the rest of the world is certainly different in weather.
God, I’d go stir-crazy in so-cal if there’s no snow in winter. I need me some cold, cold nights and driving snow – all those smokey snow-tendrils snaking their way down the road, and the road seemingly deserted of anyone but me…. god, that feeling is like pure, intangible gold. Screw palm trees, give me some pines and a nice, long blizzard.
It snows in the mountains. You can easily drive from the ocean to the snow in a couple of hours.
I prefer palm trees to snow, but you can have it all in SoCal. Don’t tell anyone though, ok? I’d prefer it if everyone hated California and stayed out. It is crowded.
Hmmm. A Tool song just popped into my head. “Aenema”, the one where the coast is toast.
Ahahah, on that album I always think of the eggs of satan – I mean… that’s got to be the most delicious recipe I’ve ever heard spoken in imitation of a ranting Hitler speech, like, ever. 😀
heheh. Yeah, it was hilarious when I found out the rabid sounding German was what, a recipe for brownies?
I also like the line “Mom’s coming ’round to put things back the way they outta be”. Mom. She’s going to flush the toilet and make it all go down. hehehe. Genocide never sounded so melodic.
Well, it ain’t technically genocide if mother nature’s the sole genocidaire, lol.. that’s ironically more like an act of god, I think.
Hmm, I’ve heard of this “god” fellow you speak of. They tell me He works in mysterious ways. Apparently he has a penchant for homicidal activity. Some say He’s the most prolific killer in history.
Well done. My son is depressed and wants to join.
Yeah for me it worked out alright. I’m not 100% certain it will help others. We got issued A.C.E. Cards which tell you what to do if a fellow soldier is down in the dumps and suspected as being suicidal. Ask your battle buddy “Are you thinking of killing yourself?” Care for your buddy. Escort your buddy to the chain of command. Also during Basic training people who said they wanted to either kill themselves or even hurt others would be on buddy watch where someone sits next to their bunk guarding them for an hour every hour.