– I worry a lot
– I always think of others before myself
– I always afraid of losing someone
– I always think about my friends A LOT like  what are they doing right now… who they talk to… where are they going?… am i invited?
– I always CARE and care A LOT of their feelings but they dont mind MINE
– I always wanna talk to them.. as the matter of fact that i always alone and have no one to talk to except calling my friends everytime … i think they already annoyed by me
– I’m afraid of losing someone
– I worry a lot about my future husband.. i’m afraid if i’m not getting married like my aunt
-I easily get jealous if my friends have fun without me or chatting without me
-I’m a loser
-I always hope i’ll find A BEST FRIEND who will always there and not cheated on me.. i mean.. i can really easily getting jealous eventhough she’s just a FRIEND
-I always insecure on myself.. my face.. body..nope. i think i got amazing body.. the only thing i could proud of..
-I hate if my close friends getting closer to another person which still in my friends circle… WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING WITH ME!
-I think i just feeling alone and lonely thats why i can easily jealous with my own friend talking/laughing with my own friend
-IS THERE ANYONE WHO SUFFER JUST LIKE ME OR IT JUST ME BEING INSANE AND PATHETIC????!!
2 comments
Firstly, worrying never solves anything, ever.
You sound like quite a few teenage girls. You’re finding things to be upset about and staying focused on those negative elements, without trying to find positives.
Personally, I cannot really relate to some of your problems, but there are many people on this website that probably could. I do not have many friends either in real life, much because I panic. Learn to love yourself and find out more about who you are, if you can. Friends will come and go, but hopefully one day you will find love, and if not, you can be independent.
You said you think of others before yourself. First of all that is a good thing, but it somehow conflicts with your jealousy which – from what I read in your post – is your worst problem. If you think about it you should be happy about others being happy themselves even if at first sight it seems like they move away from you. People notice jealousy. If you get to the point though where you can honestly say that you like others being happy even if that means a drawback for you (and this just means not being jealous) you will enjoy life much more and maybe even improve your friendships or find new friends.
Jealousy really is hard to get rid of – I used to be jealous about pretty much anything. Just until I started to realize that it’s okay to make others happy even if you get a disadvantage out of it. Seeing others happy (especially those who are close to you) is such a great reward, if you start to appreciate it. I even now like giving Christmas gifts more than receiving them: The smile on their faces is a much greater Christmas gift.
Now, this may sound like some bullshit a preacher would say, even for me as I read through it again^^ But to me it seems like this may help in your situation.
If you want to talk about it you can gladly email me clairdelune123@web.de