close to the edge

All that I feel is emptiness within me. I feel so alone so insecure no one understands how I truly feel. I feel so trapped like a rat in a cage. Never have I more then recently thought of ending it all I have nothing to live for no one to keep me going  I have hurt a great deal of people in my life im a wreck.I no longer want to feel I no longer want to have to deal with it all drinking has only made me feel worse drugs have only made me clutch deeper within a shell within me IM LOSING MY EDGE CLOSER TO THE LEDGE