I know I posted something a bit ago, but I can’t do this I need help. I’m gonna do something dumb nobodys answering me. The one person whose listening is saying I’m bluffing. I’m not, I’m not stable I’m coming unhinged please I need help nobody’s seeing my pain, I almost feel invisible.
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we are here, we are all your friends. What would you like to release? tell us about you.
I just want to end it I doing know else to say sitting in the corner crying sipping vodka isn’t how is like to be spending my Thursday but emotionally I’m not stable and I’m ready to quit
Well, what kind of help do you need?
You might be better served calling one of those numbers.
God I hate giving that advice…
I’m not calling one of those numbers.
i think you need to call 911, really, please do it for yourself. Pick up the phone, or at least call someone you can trust.
I just need advice or something to keep me thinking instead of acting right away
No 911. Friends won’t answer. This is the last resort, nobody in my family knows and I won’t let them know anyways
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Digginrings.
Enjoy the videos. It will help you forget whats bothering you.
I think sleeps my best bet cuss rim really high and drunk and I can barley think right I feelll really subdued for once like relaxation hair, I went from having. a major anxiety attack to mellowish. Pots helping,but thtnks for the help I feel awful and feel like I seems phycotic but it happens I guessdd i thinkmjustmlieimgmdoum andmsleepimg I’ll be good for me..thanks form the helps guys…
ok, sleep well.
Since the familial and social situation don’t look promising, could you go elsewhere for awhile? like any from fthem?
i think he just put himself to sleep
Or rather, what i should have said, its there another place you go to with people who will really you support you now? It sees people in your social circle (and maybe assuming family too, perhaps aren’t making a very goof effort in helping through these tough times
Woops. Bad Timing on my part.
Please read my post, Hold On, Hold Out, from December 24. I know the holidays are hard for so many. Been there. But you are not alone in your pain. Very few live that perfect, fun life. When I’ve spent the holidays alone, some persons have said they envy me, that they’d rather be alone than with their family.
Hold on. We care.
Love,
Vedura
Man, Deadontheinside I feel the same way. I am talking to my best friend and trying to tell him something is really wrong with me. I have been the victim of suicide three time since 2004. My Dad, by only sister and my Dad’s sister. Yeah, I get depressed and miss them and agonize over what the fuck could have possibly happened . The only blood I have left is my Mom, and we are not close so can’t tolk to her and if I even mentioned I am feeling like this she would freak out. And yeah, I have a great Psychiatrist and Therapist and through all that I was 100% resolved to ALWAYS choose life. I don’t know what is happening to me, but I am making notes about who I want to have what when I do it. I can’t tell anyone how feel because they will lock up and I HATE that shit. Lost my best friend to liver liver failure last april, and the most wonderful, beautiful women I have ever had the honor of calling mine for 9 years
somehow got wrapped up in Meth to the point that I don’t even see my lover in there anymore and she isn’t coming back I watched it happen, tried everything but could’t save her. Ive been alone now for almost a year I guess, For a while tried to tell myself I could live wiih it and wait it out, like a cold or something. I am alone for the first time in my life, i Have no one to care for .I am an entertainer but have been canceling shows cuz some of he songs hit too close to my heart and my voice breaks. The past two days for us have been off he the hook, I am not I going to make for some reason . I don’t feel like living is worth the hurt. I am an entertainer and my life has been FANTASTIC. But I feel like my time is past. and for the first time i have no one to love. I can’t call 911 but think maybe I should but I cant , I have a show and it so hard to get out of the rubber room. I am afraid. I really don’t want to die, but I just am tired of fighting my way to sleep at night and out of bed in the morning. i usually have a shot of Vodka or two at the end of the day, sometimes during the day. Suddenly I have no urge to drink, or get high or take meds. I just want to lie down and not wake up, or even better wake up as someone else. And I a not eating , I think because at least I feel something, I am on day 3 but my stomach already shrunk and mostly just feel weak. I live alone now, no one is going to be comeing around. I know it is stupid to do this to myself. Just don’t feel like I have the energy or will to get up off my knees this time.
Sorry for the wall of text but I am hoping someone can relate and get me past the “I don’t care anymore.” thaks