i accept it!!

reading some of the things written here.. i cant even begin to imagine what it feels like to be those who are really really down..

im up and down.. honestly i still have many things in my life that give me reasons to live but so many things frustrate me still.. and those things coupled by fucking automatic negative thinking.. suicidal mindset.. makes it worse..

you know but i think i’m turning a new leaf.. (finally) i feel like i’m growing up.. because i know i can make my grass greener.. and truly believe all y’all on this website can too..

there’s always something out there.. that gives us a reason to be here.. anything really.. it’s just God gives us this extra burden of negative mindsets.. and suicidal thinking..

for myself i truly believe once i really get my act together everything will just fall into place.. seriously it’s super frustrating right now.. i’m lonely as hell and i’m ashamed of myself for all my failures.. but I know it.. I know that if I work hard enough.. that grass will be like.. neon green lol

anyways i dunno maybe if ur reading this u’ll tell me to go fk myself.. but yeah there’s always hope.. and when there isn’t.. let the fight and the shittyness be the hope.. let it fire you up.. be angry.. tell everyone to fk off.. u deserve to be noticed.. to be loved.. to be happy..

peace out