Im a student, 21 yrs old, ive always been the best in everything, i have great future and so on but for about 2 years now ive started to become tired of living, step by step ive been losing will. Its hard to tell why, but i feel like this world has no meaning, and this rat race is making it all worse. Now ive actually stopped studying and will fail a year because i see no reason for me to pass, i dont enjoy doing anything, really, i have some good friends, i love my family but i know im going to be a burden since i have lost all my will to become rich.
Actually ive been taught by all my family that i need to be the best and become rich, as if money is the most important thing in life, and well so far i agree with that. though some people will say no! dont do it youre young and other things like that but they dont understand how i feel about this world, ive already become like an observer, i know im not gonna be here for much longer, and im able to tell how fucked up this world is, i mean really if we all cooperated everybody would be happy but no, humans are like parasites and predators in one animal. well im not gonna miss much anyways cause next world war will destroy this whole planet.
As i have thought i cant express myself. there are too many thoughts banging in my brain. Sorry for wasting your time if you read this.
Well the plan is ive already signed all papers that my body will be donated for students, so there will be no funeral expenses, i will kill myself by eating shitloads of painkillers and stabbing myself or cuttying my veins in the shower, but i still cant find a way to make my family unconcerned about it, any ideas?
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I hate to tell you but there is no way for that to happen. To change that would mean to change the laws of this country around suicide and no one is moving that forward. Everyone is happy with a stigma on suicide, so the taboo cements the negative consequences for survivors in place.
Sad but true.
Yep the world is totally fucked. A giant boot stamping on the face of humanity for the rest of forever. 1984 come true and then outdone a 100,000 times worse. I gave up years ago. Is it better to suffer for years to come and let my mom and dad watch me be miserable or kill myself now and hurt them now but spare them the pain of watching me continue to suffer ?