broken

Yesterday I was told by my last close friend that her mom doesn’t want me coming over to her house anymore and I don’t know why its like she doesn’t trust me. Right now I just don’t know what to do because all my other friends have gone of to varsity and I’m just at home feeling like a piece of crap. My parents aren’t paying as much attention to what’s going on with me as they should because I’m really losing it. I want to just shoot my self in the head and just end this misery because I’m literally dying inside…I have no-one…everyone is happy…moving on with their lives and all they keep telling me is to be positive and other crap..all I’ve ever wanted was to become a doctor and create a new life for myself but because of certain events that Happened this past year…my grades dropped horribly and I ended up not getting into any varsity…I want nothing else but to just die.