I just want to end my life, why is this so goddamn difficult.

I’ve been told I am a failure for a good portion of my life. I feel that it is true as I hit rock bottom.

Yes, my problems don’t come close to those who live on the streets or can’t eat on a daily basis yet does that compromise the fact that I am living in a hell of an environment.

I don’t deserve to live.

Every attempt I have made towards bettering myself and those around me have been pointless.

I am met with constant setbacks and hurdles, yet I know that life is not easy.

Well if life is that difficult why continue living it? Why continue living with people who take you bring you down yet society keeps you from establishing yourself due to stupid ass requirements that have no true value.

I don’t know how much more I can handle living like this. How does one stay positive in shit situations? I’m always crying it’s fucking pitiful.

I’ve lost friends because I emit nothing but negativity. My family views me as a fuckup and could give two shits what happens to me.

Why does death have to be so painful? I hope to overcome that to put myself out of misery. Those who have succeeded, I hope to follow your footsteps soon.