 Hello 🙂 I was trying to write a letter to “InternalHelper” but it seems this email doesn´t work so I will send it here. It´s adressed to this email BUT I want the other people to see it as well. BECAUSE you are my motivation to fight with dificulties in my life so that I can be hope for others.
Hello,
I´m Katy I´m 20, I´m from the Czech Republic and I´m just reading
something on the internet about your depression. First I´d like to
tell you that I´m suffering because depression often but I´ve found a
solution how to feel better. It´s not like I´m totally happy every day
but God gave me to realize lots of things and small reasons why am I
so sad sometimes so that I can solve it. Sometimes I felt so bad that
I thought I can not continue in living that I have no motivation but
now I know there is a key so I will leave my life to continue and
finish when it wants not when I want because lots of people told me
what everything is waiting for me in my life and how I will help to
people. I want you to be one of them. 🙂 I hope at least my message
will help You guys 🙂
Btw. the hope which sometimes appears to us – Sometimes it´s just something plain but sometimes it´s from God.
BTW. Have you ever heard about feeling God´s presence? Something so pleasant, more pleasant than whatever else on this world? I´m living to feel it. In Goid´s presence you feel just like a little sutisfied baby or something like it. I´ve experienced it sometimes. It´s my drug I´m living to gain. Sometimes I suffer for it a little but it isn´t the destroying suffering like you guys experience. So I´m here for those who are willing to searching God – You can´t loose nothing (maybe your depress you can loose  – SUch a big lost! :)- Are you courageous enough? It´s not easy! But worth fighting.)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z8SPwT3nQZ8
Katy
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Hi, nice to see someone here who is religious as well. There are so many people on this forum who judge you for believing in God that I started to think I should not talk about this at all..
Just out of curiosity: Were you educated religiously or did you just recently find your way to God? Because it seems like the latter to me although I find that way very hard. I know I wouldn’t believe in God if I wasn’t educated by Christians and I respect those very much who start believing after they were educated without a God.
Hi 🙂
Why to not talk about it here? Noone will know about you, we are just on the internet. I ´ve become a christian maybe 4 years ago. I used to hate christianity because I didn´t know what is christianity really about. I didn´t know that it is about Christ who´w won it everything instead of me….Yes, we christians fight a lot but He is giving us the strenght and hope. So I was educated without God. Ask whatever you want about me 🙂
Hi Katy.. It’s nice to see you here. Like ClairDeLune mentioned, religious discussions often cause some issues around here. While I respect everyone’s background and beliefs, online and offline, I also respect my own Christian beliefs. My spiritual walk has some stronger days than others… but ultimately the goal is to keep moving forward. Thanks for your post.
Okay Ill ask 🙂 how did you get to know Christianity? Was there like some event when you suddenly realized about God? Or was it a longer process? I ask because many children are educated to mere “logic and reason” and then it is pretty hard to logically explain or prove God’s existence. Imo you can’t find God using only rationalism, but rather by “opening your heart to God” – even if this sounds sentimental or anything. Someone only bound to logic and reason just cannot understand this, and many people on this forum who are like that will call you irrational or just “dumb” for that same reason.
Ok 🙂
Do you already know something about God? …not about just the “logicall religion”. Because it seems you know something about it 🙂 Matthew 11:25 (Bible) says:”At that time Jesus said, “I praise you, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, because you have hidden these things from the wise and learned, and revealed them to little children.”
“Clair” …you have a truth 🙂 We can explain plenty things about God and we can also provide lots of arguments about God. If I had 1000 very good arguments about GodI would have maybe a good feeling from how wise I feel but it wouldn´t be possible for me to feel the precious God´s presence.
Well, when I was a child I didn’t really have a choice, I just prayed and went to church because I was educated to do so. The first time I questioned my faith I was about 14/15 years old, and I chose to believe in God without my parents pressuring me to do so. Now I thank them for going to church with me every Sunday because I realized how it helped me strengthen my faith. I’m not actually sure whether I truly “know” much about God since he is so inconceivably great. I just truly know what the bible tells me about him and Jesus.
I like it thought every time someone quotes the bible, because I rarely do and probably should be doing it more often.
So after all I call myself a Christian, but not a perfect one. Sometimes I strongly feel God’s presence. But especially now whenever I am depressed I tend to think that God left me alone. Then I think of that parable of a guy walking along a beach looking as his footsteps. Do you know it? I don’t think it is in the bible but it is powerful nevertheless:
One night, a man had a dream. He dreamed he was waling along the beach with the Lord. Scenes from his life flashed across the sky and he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonging to him and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of his life has flashed before him, he recalled that at the lowest and saddest times of his life there was only one set of footprints.
Dismayed he asked, “Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you’d walk with me all the way. Why, at the most troublesome times of my life, the times I needed you most, would you leave me?”
The Lord replied, “My precious, precious child, I love you and would never, never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering when you saw only one set of footprints …That was when I carried you.”
It makes me feel better when I’m sad 🙂
Its simple. It is in our lowest, weakest moments when God touches us… And yes, Katy, when He does, you KNOW it. After we leave this place, which is not our home, you will feel that touch 100% of the time!!!!
2 Corinthians 12:9
King James Version (KJV)
9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6cW4CPvZa2k&sns=em
so cute!
But incompatible personality. And location.
I think that’s all i want to say here.
Wow, that´s so good that you feel strongly the God´s presence. I´ve felt His presence strongly maybe twice and the other times I just felt that something I saw in Bible was for me. but it´s actually God´s presence too. We just need to live more for being in God´s presence. No matter if he speaks to us about our sins and we need to confess it or when He just wants us to feel good. It´s hard for me to reed the Bible too. Sometimes I have the mood but then come lots of things or troubles and it´s all away. Than I read my Bible but it´s just a plain reading without God. I´d like to encourage you to search Him. It convicts me a little bit because I know that I´m supposed to be much much more opened to God than now but I can be glad that I realized it 🙂 So thank you 🙂 One thing I want to tell you ( you maybe know it already). In my opinion you are very sensitive on the spiritual things. That means strictly avoid depressive movies, songs and people who´s thinking doesn´t get you up but down. When I felt very bad I just listened to Kari Jobe´s songs and her thoughts- it´s availible on youtube and Mandisa is good as well http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=htIA7IE5dXI … If you would like me to send you some more christian songs, tell me 🙂 That´s the reason I´m here to share things which shows God 🙂 …http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I66SDeRQSJ4
Well, it is not like I feel his presence regularly, and I actually miss that feeling. A few years ago when I stayed with a Christian host family in Canada we did a lot of Christian stuff, we had a youth group and went on Christian Camps and it was really nice feeling God that way. But after that it just decreased. Now the last time I truly know I felt his presence is almost a year ago, that is why I have to think of that parable so often.
I have to be honest I am not that into pop music.. but when I listen to some classical pieces, like Mozart’s Requiem or Bach’s Moonlight-sonata, it helps me cheer myself up, even though the pieces themselves are very sad ones. Why do you think I shouldn’t watch depressive movies etc? I do it pretty often actually and even though that may sound paradox it helps me distract from my own depression.
Oh, so why don´t you go to this jobs again? 🙂 Yes, maybe it cheers you. I´m the kind of person who needs to have something either possitive or sad – but with some points which “reise me up”…Maybe its simillar for you. i know that lots of the people in depress tend to listen music which keeps them depressed – you know what I mean.
Mandisa and Kari Jobe thay have lots of interwieves on youtube – without music :)..
Do you know AntonÃn Dvořák? It´s one of my not too many favourites classical artists. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tGloNIXBG8U Actually O like just this piece from him.
Do you feel there is a reason why don´t you feel well? (If I wasn´t pleasant just tell me “stop Katy, I don´t want to talk about it.” 🙂 )
Embarrassing… I meant to write Beethoven of course..
Well, I was in Canada as an exchange student, and that is when I was in the youth group. I’m back in Germany, so that really is not an option. Also Christians here are different, not that I dislike anyone, but here everything is so competitive, and in Canada people just don’t care, they just enjoy life.
I’ve heard the piece before but I didn’t know it was by Dvorak, its really beautiful music.
Don’t feel bad for asking anything, I am happy to talk 🙂 There are some reasons why I am not doing so well, but can I email you about that? I don’t like everyone reading about my personal stuff -.-
Mine is clairdelune123@web.de
I agree, it is nice to see that there are other Christians on this site. I usually feel like I’m the only one here who’s worried that I might end up in hell if I take my own life. Or even if I don’t for that matter.
God doesn´t want you to go to hell. Keep on seeking and you will find. That´s our big responsibility. Do you keep on seeking? 🙂
Seeking what? I do pray and I do believe in God, but I am seriously the biggest loser known to man I think. :'(
caged, you doing well today?
Search for and pray for a good christian friend. Where are you exactly from in America? I will give it into God´s hands. You need seek God. And don´t worry, it´s not just you who will seek God..God is doing much more to find us than we do. He isable to show you how to go toward him 🙂
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U4hvpMErVbA
Hi Katy,
I live in Quebec, Canada. Thank you for the video link, but it is not available to watch from Canada. You’re right, I really do need to seek God more than I do. Thank you for your help.
Wig, I’m doing just okay today. A little better today because I saw my parents yesterday. I have a huge migraine today tho. Each time I see them I realize how much I would absolutely kill them if I took my life. That just makes me feel even more trapped here on earth tho. I really don’t know what to do. How are YOU feeling today?
Hi Cagedtiger, how are you? 🙂 Tell it to me 🙂
If you happen to encounter her, let me know. She hasn’t called me or answered her emails lately, and I havent seen her on here lately, kinda worried.