Surely some people deserve to die – like me. I’m a monster.
I did some terrible things. I hurt people more than anyone could believe. It’s not possible to fix any of it.
Most would want to see me die in prison.
I’ve chosen suicide because the pain is too much.
I wish my parents had taught me about the world. I wish I had had friends who loved me.
I blame myself and I blame them.
Knowing that Hitler and other evil people killed themselves gives me some comfort.
I must be lonely to want to have fellowship with other evil spirits.
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Dick Cheney? Donald Rumsfeld? Dubya?
I doubt it’s possible for anyone to hurt anyone “more than i could believe.”
I know i am capable of unspeakable atrocities, i just haven’t committed any.
So i know other people are quite capable of similar horrors, if they are, for any reason, ever so inclined.
You said something in a comment elsewhere about believing you’ve been forgotten.
If you’ve really “hurt people more than anyone could believe,” i assure you, you will *never* be forgotten, by those you’ve wronged.
I doubt you are as bad as Hitler. And if you are a monster like you said the “wrong” things that you’ve done won’t cause you any pain, i think if u are a monster you won’t care..
Dear smelting,
In the Mein Kampf, Hitler writes that if someone would of stopped him in the early stages, back when he had just felt prison he would of not gone through with his plan. No one stopped him. The world and Hitler paid a price that day. You can still change direction. it is not too late
I find it interesting that people constantly talk about how terrible Hitler was… but most people never mention all the people who made the choice to embrace his concepts and follow his orders.
The real “scary” part is not his ideals or what he tried to do, but that so many people apparently agreed with him, and then helped him try to complete it.
And if you really think about it, nearly identical things are happening today, on a much larger scale, but in less direct, more subtle ways, which can easily be denied and are frequently excused.
The powers that be, learned a lot from him, and are now using many of the nazi strategies, adapted in ways that make it seem like it’s not even happening.
So it’s almost as if you could say that, in some ways, they did “win.” His concepts are alive and well and being used today, have been refined and improved and adapted… even if most people think that he and his goals were “defeated.” It’s not just about “Aryans and Jews” anymore. It’s a much broader and more subtle genocide, and occurring on a global scale, rather than being overt and isolated to just one particular ethnic group or culture.
All it takes for evil to triumph is that good men do nothing. Edmund Burke
So anyway, i read somewhere that Dubya (now?) suffers from depression, and does paintings… (of his own feet while sitting in the bathtub…)
And i think a lot of people probably would agree that he should be in prison, and would like to see him die there, and would possibly also grant him the title of “monster.” (though many would likely lean toward the “ineptitude” explanation, and see him as a mere patsy, a tool, a figurehead, a face to be associated with certain events, rather than the actual cause of them…)
It would have to be someone like that, to “hurt more people than anyone could believe.”
It would tickle me something fierce, to know Dubya resorted to anonymously admitting, on this site, that he feels like a monster, and wants to die.
I question whether he’s actually “responsible” for any of the things he’s blamed for… but i can’t really say he’s not, either, since he obviously went along with it and played whatever was his intended role.
“…Cayn’t get fooled agayin! Heh heh…”
(note: no, i’m not blaming him for all the world’s problems… not even all of the US’s problems… he’s just another cog in the machine, IMO)
Government like organized religions at houses of corruption and lies. We can all get depressed when we stop to criticize our own actions. I too should be in prison rotting away. I however did overcome the depression in a pursuit of self giving and will continue to do so. With enough time and experience i hope to attain the skills that you clevermane have amassed. To give the presidents so do, the have more lies to deal with then they could ever imagined and all the challenges are out there in the public. with the public just ready to pounce when an ill choice is made.
Or maybe this is one of the Enron guys?
Or maybe this is someone from the FDA, who approved some experimental drug that ruined countless lives…
Honestly, i’m just having fun with guessing, trying to imagine who would even say something like “hurt more people than anyone could believe.” If that’s actually true, you must be famous (or rather Infamous).
I wonder what is the limit… where is the line? What is the number? How many people could i believe could be hurt by one person?
I suppose it might have to be a number larger than the current population of earth. But then again, i suppose it’s possible to hurt multiple generations worth of people in a single lifetime, so maybe… 3x the population of earth?
So if you hurt, say, more than 20 billion people, then i would not be able to believe that… at least, not without some solid evidence.
How did you get from Hitler to Dubya, quite a leap, both evil nonetheless.
I Have hurt many and i have the potential to hurt more then stalin, pol pot, And hitler combined, but i chose to stop, i can never undue what i have done, but i learned from it and if i stay at it…i will never forget. I have to potential to achieve the most brutal or the most kind acts. Same with all of us. What will you chose
from hitler to dubya is no leap. They are actually significantly connected. If you care to investigate, you will understand.
We are all significantly connected, if you care to investigate. Everything you say and do is a learned behavior that our brains process from actions and experiences that have come before. Playing the “what if game” can really grow an individual.
However, smelting you are not a monster, you made bad decisions. Learn from them. Adjust your future accordingly. If you were a monster, you would care less what you have done.
okay well, hitler and dubya are more significantly connected than just picking two random people in the world and saying they are connected. lol.
Thanks guys… there’s nothing I can do about the situation. If I was a superhero – I would try to make everything better with magic powers and by being cool. But in reality, I’m just a fuckface.
I have to accept that the person I was a monster towards will hate me for the rest of her life. What I did was fucking unforgivable.
I wish I’d never been born. Anyone else feel the same way?
Well it is super that you understand what you have done to that poor girl. She didn’t deserve it and you are my hero for “owning that”. Look that makes you a Super Hero to me! Look at most super heroes most i know about made mistakes. You are doing something about it by discussing your short coming!
That lady may hate you for the rest of her life. That is her choice and no blame will be place upon her.
At least being hated means they care.
I’ve never been a monster to anyone. But i was close enough, once, that my monster was showing. I allowed myself to be convinced i was a monster, when i really wasn’t. In fact, i controlled it in the clutch moment, when every fiber of my being wanted to just go full rage mode and let the pieces fall where they may. But i reined it in, and no harm was allowed to come to anyone. And yet, no one appreciates this, and instead, i’m painted as a villain for exercising restraint, in the moment it was most necessary. Kinda like “the dark knight,” but a far cry from batman.
But yeah… i’ve wished i was never born, many times, likely for very different reasons than yours… but probably for some of the same ones. But it seems silly to wish for something so impossible, since it has already occurred, and i already exist.
Looking at the overall experience of my life, i would have to say that i do think that it would have been better if i had not existed. And if i could change that, i wouldn’t mind erasing myself from this existence, and erasing every experience i’ve ever had. I’m pretty sure that’s what happens when we die, anyway… it’s like we were never born; to us. It’s just that the ripples we leave in our wakes, don’t just disappear, once we’re gone. Some things echo through time, even after the source is long gone.
I wish i would of had the same restraint that clevername demonstrated. Instead it took years to rein my monster in.
The ripples that you, clevname and myself leave behind will play a significant roles on others development throughout time. Look to see the comments about Hitler. I would never wish you two were not born, i only wish that you two find the strength to meet the challenges of the day with determination for a better outcome