The world as we know it

its like no one understands what I’m going through. Or how hard it is on me when my dad comes home drunk and with a new girl pretty much every week. The world as we THINK we know it, actually might understand, they just don’t want to.I don’t know why I keep cutting or attempting suicide, I know that I can stop..it’s just that I don’t want to. In reality, when people die of suicide, they don’t want to end their lives, they only want the pain to end.