She won’t talk to me at school anymore. She won’t even look at me. When we managed to arrange a meetup on omegle, she disconnected for no apparent reason. When my closest friend, the only other person besides her who knows about my depression & suicide attempts, confronted her about it, she says she just doesn’t know what to do anymore. She has replacements for me, i’m not actually special. She supposedly cares, but then why won’t she talk? It hurts. I’m cutting more and more often now…on my hips, where nobody can see it, even at swim practice.
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She’s afraid to hurt your feelings more than they already are, and doesn’t want to have to pretend to actually care, when she doesn’t, because that would be dishonest, and cause you both more problems.
She won’t talk because she doesn’t want to. Hurting yourself isn’t going to fix that. In fact, it will only reinforce her decision to distance herself from you.
DAlex, you must take from your relationship with this girl all the good and not so good. All that you have learned as far as who you are and who she is and use this knowledge to base your next relationship off of. What areas were you lacking in what areas was she lacking in. Then improve these areas in yourself and when searching out your next girlfriend remember what was beneficial in a girlfriend and what was not. You this as a baseline to find a relationship that will be positive for both of you.
As far as the cutting, well…I should ask is this break up the only reason and only time you have ever used this as a coping method?
The problem is, I still love her. I want to be able to salvage something out of this train wreck I’ve created, and I somehow still beloved that someday we will be together. I don’t know why. I’m hoping this isn’t the end of mine and her’s relationship.
To answer your question, a few years ago I cut very very shallow when I was stressed out. It wasn’t terrible cuts at all, but the intention was there.
DAlex this chick is done. You have 2 choices: 1) Become insane psycho stalker who will just make her hate you or 2) let it go. I won’t lie to you, it’s going to hurt for a while. A lot. But it will hurt less over time. I promise. You’re still young.
Then one day you’ll meet someone else fall in love be deliriously happy for a while until she yanks it out from underneath you then you’ll want to die again.
But until that day, try to live, laugh, love and experience as much as you can.
idk, i think that letting people walk all over you is a surefire way to give more people the sign that they should go ahead and walk all over you. Maybe you should just do whatever you want, and let the chips fall where they may… and if people are upset, fuck ’em.
@clevername Problem is, I can’t just do that…I care too much. On the surface, I seem like a typical teenage boy, with the normal interests, but i’m really quite soft and atypical.