Hello…First and foremost, I sincerely apologise for having another post already. It is probably quite rude to post again so soon, but so far this isn’t a great night and I just need to talk to someone. Again, I apologise and realise that it is rather rude to post twice within one night.
So I got finished talking with Her, and she says that I should date my close friend mentioned in my other post from tonight. She says that my friend could give me the affection and attention I want, and she says she can’t provide either of those, even if she wanted to. I told Her that I already know that she’s not going to fall in love with me again, and that I have read far too deep into the details, and I have figured everything out. I’m never going to date her, as much as it pains me. She said she feels the same way. What’s that supposed to mean?
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On a separate note, i’m trying to keep myself from cutting again tonight. Yay me. Nobody else actually knows I still cut. As a matter of fact, everyone thinks I am cured of depression. How wrong they are…
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Sounds a lot like someone i used to know… means she’s sorry because of what you’re going through but doesn’t want to be with you again, maybe she cares but not enough as in loving you… that’s what it sounds to me, because she even mentions you giving it a shot with your friend… i’d say call it quits… you already got the answers you needed and not much more can be done about the whole situation… i might be wrong (i’m usually wrong, lol), but even if that’s not the case, i hope you can fight against the cuts and get through this… i honestly wish you the best of luck.
it’s generic, impersonal sympathy facade. I’ve seen it too many times. They will claim to care, and even try to act like they mean it… but really, they’re just trying to avoid feeling guilty for hurting anyone (notice i didn’t say “you”). She doesn’t want to allow any connection or attachment to persist between you, or even the possibility of it being rekindled in the future. And there is a reason… there is always a reason… but it’s extremely unlikely that she’ll ever allow you to understand her reasoning, which also has reasons… she doesn’t want you to know, for reasons she doesn’t want you to know, for reasons she doesn’t want you to know. Get it? (and if you apply deductive reasoning, you can almost certainly figure out her reasons, and even her reasons for her reasons… but she’ll never let you confirm it completely; you’ve likely already been shown, but probably amidst a plethora of distractions and superfluous information, some of which was likely intentionally vague and/or contradictory, or just simply didn’t make sense… kinda like that “i feel the same way” thing… LOL, no, she doesn’t feel the same way at all… if she did, there would be no reason to separate… she probably meant that she agrees that she doesn’t want to pursue anything further with you… which i don’t think is appropriately expressed as “i feel the same way.” Almost certain that was one of those confusion trick responses… but, i digress…)
If you have people tracking your deptession, you are likely an attention seeker. Look here, no one in my life has a hint or clue that I am dreaming up my suicide. I’ll have a split rist in a bucket of water somewhere far, far away and that should be a nice end, alone, forsaken, no hope. We are all a bunch of pussies here. Listen to myself, listen to you. So week and childish we are.
Moderator, pls do not post, this came out wrong!
She’s not worth your happiness anyway. My soon to be x is not worth mine. You are not childish, sorry for saying that, but broken hearted.