I have only four true friends at the moment. Trying to make new friends for me use to be so easy… now not so much.
Anyways, I made a Facebook status, just thanking my four true friends for staying by my side no matter what.
My old ‘best friend’ saw it, seeing I didn’t include her. Note that I didn’t include her because  she never speaks to me, she makes promises she NEVER keeps, and she tries to invite me and our other best friend to her house, only to ditch us last minute.
I got tired of how she treated me, so I just kind of stopped trying with her.
Anyways, she saw the status, and then started a group chat on kik with me and our other friend.
She messaged us, saying how we all need to hang out soon, and this time she means it (which I have heard plenty of times before.)
So, I basically just told her how I felt, about how her and the other people I loved and thought were my friends leaving, and how I just became so depressed and tired of trying to make friends with people who would stay just to ask about my life, find out about the bullying, and then leave, just like everyone else did. I told her how I’ve given up, how I’m basically a depressed, suicidal antisocial girl who stays in the house she lives in.
I know that she wants to keep our friendship, but honestly I dunno if I should try.
I don’t want to be let down again… But I do want my friends…
I dunno what to do.. So what do you think?
Should I trust her(which trusting is hard for me) or should I just forget it?
4 comments
Give it a try without expecting too much… sounds like she might have some reasons to be neglecting you all, so maybe she will change… but i wouldn’t count on it. I have to comment to that, “only” 4 true friends? that’s a lot by todays standards… i have 1 true friend and another one i doubt about… (talking about in person friends tho, not internet ones), so by my account 4 is a lot, haha.
Haha, well it’s not exactly the funnest with my friends, considering 3 I never see due to the whole “living in different states” thing.
But one I rarely hang out with.
I dunno, I’m gonna talk about this with her.. I’ll be expecting the worse.
Thank you!
Stay strong c:.
I agree that you should give it a try but not expect too much. She has feelings, too. But you should feel grateful for having 4 true friends. I have no true friends. Whatever ‘friends’ I’ve had have gone out of my life, are only there when they’re bored, or have backstabbed me and hurt me very much.
wethebroken ,
sounds like a lot of drama, I don’t like drama, I like having fun with my friends, it’s up to you.