Why

I sit here thinking.. why couldn’t it have all been fine. It all started when i was around the age of 7. Mom got arrested. Dad wanted nothing to do with me. I felt lost, abandoned, unwanted, helpless, worthless, even forgotten. I didn’t know what to think or what was going on. Theres times now where i still feel lost, unwanted, and forgotten. Forgotten by the world, like no one ever even knew I existed. I go to school, just to get bullied on a daily basis. I sit and wonder what I did to deserve this, why is this even happening. Am I really that unwanted? Things that just make you go hmm right?! Theres just so much to think and wonder about and sometimes I just don’t even know. I know what people expect of me, be happy, outgoing, have a funfilled life!? Don’t you think I wanna be my own person. I’m me and its so difficult for me to really be me when all I do is get judged for the clothes i wear or the music I listen to. I’m not gonna change myself for one person, or even a million. I’m gonna be me no matter what people think of me. It’s my life and I’ll live it how I want to, whether its cutting or attempting suicide or even having a moment that actually makes me feel a little happy about myself. My point on this is I just would like to see anyone going through something hard for them to find someone to talk to that may be able to bring their head up. If you ever need to talk and have a kik please feel free to message me. My username is bbygirl82913. I’m always willing to talk about anything or even just talk and become friends(: keep your heads up soldiers! I know you have strength!