you’ve completely pushed me over the edge. i don’t care if the messages stopped. you said just enough, enough times, and left it how you did, knowing how cruel you are. how could you beat a person down that badly that many times? how could you just keep hurting me that badly? what’s wrong with you? do you actually believe all of the horrible things you kept saying to me?! do you think you’re sane?! you can’t be! you have so many issues that are far beyond me. how could you hurt me this badly? how can you be so cruel. i don’t care what you’re answer is. i can’t put into words how badly you hurt me. did you feel any better? did you think you were accomplishing anything?! what is wrong with you?! because you hate your life, are not happy, have no job, have all the free time in the world, you’ve now tapped into your mental illness. i mean are you kidding me?! you’re being ridiculous now. and now your mission is just to hurt me as badly as you possibly can. this will stay with me forever. it’s indoctrinated in me now. you hurt someone this long this many times, are you kidding me?! what is wrong with you? i actually tried as hard as i possibly could for this long to make things better with you, to show you how insanely much i care about you and love you. you took from me for this long. you used me. you took everything i could possibly give. i gave you every bit of love and care and time and anything else. you took it all. and you have to be as nasty as humanly possible? now, you legitimately ruined my life. you did. point blank period. this is ridiculous. how could you beat me down this badly? i won’t miss this, at all, i’ll long for all the good in you. you hurt me so bad theres no way i can come back from this. how can i not ignore you when you keep acting like this?! there’s no reasoning with you! look at yourself! listen to yourself! use your rational and logical side, if it even still exists! how could you keep hurting me this badly?! how could you?! as insane as this sounds, after all this, i think someone can bounce back from physical abuse much easier than verbal abuse, because after someone beats you down verbally enough times, that stays with you. how could you?! i’m serious, i don’t have words to express how badly you hurt me. i am so upset right now because i can’t even get my thoughts across because words don’t exist to describe this.