Honesty

We lie all the time. Some do it to avoid hurting others, or being a bother to others, or because you just can’t trust anyone anymore. The most common lie is “I’m ok.” We all know we aren’t ok. And for me at least it hurts more each time I have to pretend that I’m full of sunshine and shit rainbows. The truth? I’m not alright. I’m not ok. Hell, I’m not even stable. I keep hearing things, and kinda seeing things. I know the manager is sitting in his office watching the live security feed from where I am, making sure I don’t screw up. They all watch me. Babysit me. Sad thing is, I still find ways to screw up, in an idiot proof system. On top of that, the only connection I have to any living thing is my dog, and she’s so drugged up on pills, she doesn’t realize who I am.