I used to smile all the time. I never cared what anyone said about me. Then they started getting meaner meaner. They hit me and called me things like “slut” and “*****”. My own friends had turned on me. Like they didn’t even care about me anymore. I thought for a long time. Then I started cutting. I never thought I would be one of the people who started doing this. I actually felt really good. The bullying just got worse. I got so tried with it. I decided I wasn’t good enough because that’s what they told me. I got a bottle of pills and started taking them. I had gotten up to six (4 more than I’m supposed to take) when my friend texted me. He had been there through all of it. I could tell him anything and he would listen to make me happy. He sent “r u ok?” I took the text as a sign. Right after that I blacked out. I was taken to the hospital when my mom came in and saw the pill bottle in hand and me lying on the floor. I was released two days later with nothing wrong but stomach problems. From then on I never tried again. I have thought about it but whenever I think I want to, I text him. I realized how important I am to the people who care about me and how much I would miss. I’m not saying that if you feel like this you’re crazy because I know how it feels. Everyone should have a good friend to text or talk to because in my case it saved my life.
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4 more pills than you were supposed to take??? It’s amazing you survived, 6 pills made you black out? It must have been some pretty strong stuff like birth control pills or flintstone vitamins, god bless it’s a miracle you survived.
I know what you mean. I have a good friend who lives In California. I’m on the east coast. We met on youtube. She made a video talking about the hard times she was going through. We started talking and realized we had a lot in common, and that was almost 3 years ago. I know regardless of whats going on in my life, she’s there for me as a friend (although I will always wish it was more) and I’ll always be here for her. Sometimes we may not talk or text for a week or two, but If I needed her, I know I can count on her to talk to me. Just remember true friends will always be there for you. Keep your head up, and don’t let bullies make you feel any less deserving of happiness.
If you really want to make your ex friends mad, exceed in school, set goals and make something of yourself in life. lol Do what you love, and find what makes you happy. Nothing else will matter, no what haters think, say, or do. I wish you the best! =)
If she was taking benzos, or even certain antihistamines, they can have severe escalations in how they effect you, even at small titrations. Take two benadryls, you’re probably a little fuzzy, a little sleepy, a little lethargic, but take six and you might start seeing spiders crawling up the walls and hear people whispering around you that don’t actually exist. That’s just OTC meds.
6 benedryl would get you “high” but can it knock you out? You have far greater knowledge on this Lorax, take the stage
Depends. If you have no tolerance to it (don’t take any regularly) it might well put you into a zombified state where you’d be very likely to simply pass out in a pile while hiding from the crazy hallucinations.
Have you ever tripped out on benedryl or just speaking from research?
I once took 8 benadryls on an outting with my mom and my sister, visiting one of my mom’s friends in bum-fuck-nowhere Ohio and the guy we were visiting insisted on teaching me how to play Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd, on the guitar. So I had to pretend I wasn’t seeing all sorts of weird shit crawling across the walls and floor and ceiling, and hearing all sorts of incoherent whispering all around me – I pulled it off rather well, and even learned the tabs somehow. But secretly I just wanted to go to sleep in the back seat of the car and wait until everyone was ready to go home.
well people use benedryl as a sleep aid so it could put you to sleep that is one of its uses. But to take a few sleeping pilsl and then be like omg I passed out!!!!1! is kind of lol. although she said her regular dose of whatever she took is 2 pills so she only had a triple dose of something she was already used to and comfortable with and most likely had some tolerance to. Even if it was a benzo, many people take triple doses or even a lot more without any kind of crazy effects.
Well, in the case it was benadryl she was taking, two pills would be enough to put you to sleep at night – in my case, I’ve been taking 2 benadryls every night for so damn long that I can time approximately when, in the middle of the night, the benadryls will wear off and I’ll wake up, so I’ve started taking three a night to compensate. But I’d assume she hasn’t been taking whatever it is she’s talking about for a decade without interruption. Tripling the dose I normally take of any of the meds I normally take (aside from ibuprofen, of course) would do some strange shit, most likely. I don’t want to speculate, and would prefer not to experiment. lol
I’ve been there too </3
Alone with nobody to talk to, vent to, give love to….all you have gotten from people was hatred. You are not alone.
I’ve taken 24 Benadryl before and all I did was trip, really fucking hard….followed by feeling stupid and fuzzy for a few days.