im a fuck up..

Who told you that you were a fuck up? I know more than I want to about telling myself that over and over again. But ultimately, somebody gave us that message – parents, someone we admired or looked up to, a teacher. The message came from somewhere and what’s really fucked up is that it sticks. And then we can’t even hold on to reason. I’m going to guess that what made you happy and that you think you screwed up was a relationship. Th reality is no other person, no matter how er feel about them has the right to so much power in our life. I know that head knowledge about it doesn’t help. But if you can just care enough about yourself (I won’t say “love” yourself because the concept makes me sick too) to want help it would be good to find someone you can at least start to trust and talk about things. he more you keep it contained within yourself the worse it will hurt. Posting here is a start, and I hope you find what you need.