Might As Well…

I guess I’m just gonna list all the reasons I want to do this:

1. Let’s see my view on myself is a worthless piece of shit, I’m broken beyond repair and time is not healing me

im a person who is very self-destructive of herself its defiantly not okay.

2. I’m 13 fucking years old I shouldn’t have this view on myself but I do and really is it not sad?

3. I’m severely depressed like clinically diagnosed so I guess this was coming right?

4. I, a major fuck up and I don’t deserve to live a life someone else could have right now.

5. My “father” oh damn, he is the biggest asshole of them all, I never knew you could actually lose

that unconditional love your supposed to have for you parents but that love quickly turned into hate.

6. I’m a caged fucking animal , I can’t express myself nor talk the way I want at home if I try and tell my family my feelings they won’t listen they’ll just blow off my input.

7. I’m so fucking Angry I’m very goddam Angry and I do nothing about it

8. I take pills and smoke weed to numb myself

9 I have the stuff to kill myself with and I don’t know whats stopping me from doing it

10. I’m very aware that no one cares for me nor my well being so why the hell even bother

11. I’m insecure , very I feel as though I’m not nor ever going to be good enough for someone, because I know that my very best could always be better

12. I’m not a self help book I’m just a fucked up kid lost in this fucked up generation.

13. Death always seems more intriguing then life ever was or is.

14. I’m done with this lost hole of depression, madness, insanity.

15. How could I forget! I hear and see voices that doesn’t fucking help at the fuck all.

16. I’m the living dead.