(i dont know why its upside down..) This is me. I may not be the prettiest person alive but here i am. I know im not pretty, i hear it everyday from everyone. even my own family. Im used to it. Call me whatever you want. Im a cutter. Im suicidal. This is who i am and nothings going to change that. Ive tried killing myself 8 times. my 8th attempt happened recently about a week ago when people at school started picking on me again. Im not proud of what i do. Its become a habit. My parents dont know that i still try to kill myself. I dont think they would do anything about it. Theyd probably be better off without me in their life. All they do is treat me like shit. They never try to help me with my problems. Theyve tried once, they sent me to a place called Sweetser. Its a crisis center. I was there for a week. I wasnt allowed outside or anything. They gave me food that tasted horrible. I didnt eat for that whole week that i was there. I had lost about 15 pounds when i stayed there. I wish i could go back there (only to lose more weight) I always tell people that i dont need help and that i dont like asking for help because it makes me look weak. I want to ask for help i just dont know how to come out and ask for it. I feel as though if i ask for help people will laugh and make fun of me even more. That happened once in 5th grade. Im 15 now and going to be 16 in 5 days (March 13).
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You’re upside-down. You look nice. You’d probably look better up-right.
why do you say you’re not pretty ? you’re quite attractive
but that has nothing to do with why you want to kill yourself
My phone refuses to abide with the laws of screen orientation. What sorcery is this, I cannot see your picture clearly?!
Hehe well I can make out you’re nothing less than pretty, and by the looks of things…is that a H&F RealTree fleece shirt?
Asking for help is the bravest thing an individual can do; rendering assistance is the most honourable feat one can offer. You’ve reached out to us by posting here, and we will do our best to support you for however long you may need it. You are 5 years younger than me, and I tell you; the last five years were the greatest of my life. So… Trek onward through life for now, seek support from both those in your life and us folk on SP, and let’s see if we can put your life back the right way up 🙂
How do your classmates pick on you?
as ms has said, asking for help is one of the most courageous things a person can do…luckily, you’ve come to the right place, where there are many people who empathize with you, understand you, and are more than happy to help you
I don’t see why people would pick on you,but I can see how it scarred you.Don’t worry though,here nobody will judge you.We’re here to help you.Fuck all these people who bring you down and make fun of you,they’re ignorant and heartless.
Keep your head up and smile.
Welcome suicidal chick, we are a diverse group of individuals, many that will happily try and assist you out of your depression.
I love your picture. Life can be upside down and sometimes it’s great to turn things around to get a different perspective. Thanks for writing, thanks for being here.
Thank you 🙂
You look excellent.
There is only one way that I can think of to stop people from bullying you. It’ s a deadly martial arts move called the buddah finger. You have to aim for their weakest point and use it accurately. There isn’t anything that can stop it.
SSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHUUUUUUUUUUUSH chu are so pretty! don’t let people tell you otherwise
yeah no
You are beautiful girl! I feel you….please know you are not alone