how much can a brain process? day in day out i only keep thinking and seeking solutions. how does normality feel, what is rest – i’ve forgotten all these things. though i don’t feel like that, but logically speaking, it will explode one day.
i’ve accumulated quite a collection of solutions by now. they can change anybody’s life if he follow them diligently. but then i ask – why don’t they change mine? i think there is a part of me that wants misery, that don’t want to get detached from them, that wants all that evil that they transfer in me.
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Hahaha so true. I too have probably come up with pages and pages of solutions and ideas for how to have a good life – yet I am not applying them to myself and trying to change. Part of me must think I deserve to suffer too. Or just too lazy to try to do better.
I too wonder how much the brain can handle. Sometimes I feel like if my brain was a man-made machine it would be ready to fail and burst into flames. I am thinking thoughts alllll day long, looping in circles over and over again. Sometimes family will ask me how I don’t get bored, sitting her alone, no friends ever call me, no job. It surprises me too. I used to get really bored in life. Now entire days can go by because of how busy I am thinking.
Sometimes I think my biggest mistake is living my life too much in my head and not with my body. My body just sits here all day doing nothing while my brain is busy trying to figure out everything.