I’m reading your posts and I can’t help but think you’re going to drive yourself insane, whether you leave this planet early or not. If a guy is hurting you as bad as this guy is. If he wants you to fail and you say he hates you, why in the world do you love him endlessly. If I was in love with a woman and she did to me what this guy is doing to you I would get away from her. It wouldn’t matter how much I loved her because I can see all she’s giving me is pain. The fact that you love him so much in spite of the incredible pain you’re getting from him doesn’t make any sense.

I’m not a tough love guy because I don’t like it when people shove that crap in my face but you’re going to have to make a decision. From everything you’re saying you and him are never going to work out. You’re never going to be happy with him and the only other obvious answer is to leave him. It sucks being alone but one day you might find someone else and even if you don’t you’ll eventually get over him.

I’ve never even heard of someone loving someone else who gives them an endless amount of pain. If you don’t leave this guy you’re going to be miserable the rest of your life and it doesn’t have to be that way.