It’s…0813hrs on the 26th here and I’m still in bed. Old work wake up was 0545hrs on the dot, followed by an angry middle aged man calling me a motherf*cker and a slew of other groggy men/women rushing for the shower block and prepping for the day ahead. It feels…lacking? To lay here in my bed and not have to worry about doing anything anymore.
The way I dealt with not dealing with others was to keep occupied/hide in the back room or…picture them nekkid. That was odd when my CO walked in though….but that’s a very NSFW story.
Also: Can’t means won’t. Won’t means jail. Erm, yeah. Sorry I don’t have anything helpful.
Try focusing on what you like to do, or the happy memories in your life. If you don’t have many of them, then make some more! Go exploring, make new friends. There’s a number of things out there to do! I know it all seems pointless, I’ve been there, trust me. But even though I still struggle with suicidal thoughts sometimes, I think of those I’ll leave behind if I did die. Maybe you can do the same, and hopefully look forward being around co-workers someday! (^^)
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It’s…0813hrs on the 26th here and I’m still in bed. Old work wake up was 0545hrs on the dot, followed by an angry middle aged man calling me a motherf*cker and a slew of other groggy men/women rushing for the shower block and prepping for the day ahead. It feels…lacking? To lay here in my bed and not have to worry about doing anything anymore.
The way I dealt with not dealing with others was to keep occupied/hide in the back room or…picture them nekkid. That was odd when my CO walked in though….but that’s a very NSFW story.
Also: Can’t means won’t. Won’t means jail. Erm, yeah. Sorry I don’t have anything helpful.
Try focusing on what you like to do, or the happy memories in your life. If you don’t have many of them, then make some more! Go exploring, make new friends. There’s a number of things out there to do! I know it all seems pointless, I’ve been there, trust me. But even though I still struggle with suicidal thoughts sometimes, I think of those I’ll leave behind if I did die. Maybe you can do the same, and hopefully look forward being around co-workers someday! (^^)
-Jenn
Just get out of the bed every morning and make rule that you can’t go back to sleep ir liethere