I wish to go back in time where

I just wish I can go back in time where happiness really did exist and where you didn’t have to think about smiling bc it just happend when you were truly happy and not having to fake it . I just wish I can go back in time where your sister was your true best friend and had that sister relationship that no one can break , where you told eachother everything and stood up for eachother And cared about one another . I just wish I can go back in time  when your best friends were really your best friends the ones you call every day even when you just saw eachother at school  But still talk for hours and hours on the phone till your mom would have to come in and tell you “are you done with the phone yet,? You’ve been talking for hours ” The real best friends the ones that you didn’t have to be someone else to impress them you just had to be yourself . I just wish I can go back in time where I never thought about money or having to  think about how much should I save to buy my contacts and pay my phone bill and do my eyebrows and buy an outfit for a special occasion next week , where I never thought about money because I never cared about money because at that moment I already had everything because my dad’a job was good and didn’t have to worry about whether not having enough money to pay the house rent or not , where money was really just up to the parents to get and where money never mattered bc you already had the things that money can’t even buy . I just wish I can go back in time where I never felt so lonely that I became so obsessed with talking with random strangers bc the people I knew forgot about me , I miss the times where I felt true love existed and felt it really was in the air because the one that would that says “I love you” ment he truly did it ment that he would do anything to prove it not just say it , when he said it he ment that your his everything and when he said it he also ment to promise to protect you and never harm you because when he said it you also felt it and felt safe, when he said it you finally understood what it was like to have butterflies in your stomach the kind of ones that made your heart skip , the kind of ones that made you smile randomly having people wonder why is this idiot randomly smiling while glancing in the clouds , not the kind of butterflies that made you feel so sick and nervous because when you hear his name your heart breaks a little more and your head starts to hurt remembering all the things you thought he was the one that made your heart beat faster instead of slower . I just wish I can go back in time where two people that truly loved eachother would be the ones that end up getting married to eachother not for money or fame or anything fake like that but for something real … Love. I just wish I can go back in time where I’d dream about a bunch of things I wanna do and I wanna be and having hope that one day I’ll be that one day ill do , when dreams had a meaning .. When dreams would end up reality . I just wish I can go back where I was happy , when happiness had a meaning .. When happiness existed .