It’s not that I’m unattractive, I’m just embarrassed by my face; I hate moving my mouth in front of people; I hate when people look at me. I try to be social but I just creep people out, and that just puts me two steps backwards. My brain is slowing down. I can’t remember words or concepts I need to communicate with people. My brain has become so tired I struggle to remember correct sentence structure when speaking. I am thrust into all of these social activities because of my boyfriend and I constantly embarrass him. Sometimes he catches me staring at nothing and asks me what I am thinking about, assuming I am deep in thought. I say nothing, but he persists so I make up something about the trees on the side of the road, for instance. I feel guilty for letting him waste years of his life with me. I am a shell of a person.
I’m wasting my time here.
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Doll,
It’s ok, I’m blind, and trust me, my face isn’t that great either. I too, would also be embarrassed if any girl wanted me, because my face is so unattractive, much like you say yours is.
You can email me if you want:
brl.cents@gmail.com
I know exactly what you mean. It sucks. I start tearing up after 3 seconds of eye contact. ) I think it’s okay and you shouldn’t guilty. well that’s what I think.
I used to be embarrassed about my face too. It’s even worse now that I’m older.