Oh shit. Â Oh shit. Â Oh shit. Â Oh shit. Â Oh shit. Oh shit. Oh shit. Oh shit. Oh shit. Oh shit. Oh shit. Oh fennec foxes. Oh shit. Oh shit. Â Oh shit I fucked up so much and am just worsening what’s already bad. Â Oh shit.
Well – somebody decided to depart from me to find their place in the ‘other side’, the other day. I didn’t hear for a while, just got a message asking “Could you stay with me until I go?” But I had gone out that day, got home and fell asleep. The next day (a couple days ago) the sister told me what had happened. I thought I could get past it, I have before, but why not again. I can’t stop thinking about it or dreaming about it. But they’re not nightmares. The person was alive, and it was happiness. The scary part is when I wake up and all of that is gone . . . they’re gone. I should have, and I could have done something. Now I’m afraid to leave here.
This means resorting to my bad behaviors which leads to repeatedly fucking things up. I’m just making everything worse.
I had this happen to me a week ago (American media reports on suicide are really in depth compared to here) so…I understand what you’re going through right now. You have my condolences obviously, I’d put it down to right place and wrong time, but even then I’m not sure. I’m still haunted by this person I lost and their voice… Lawd how does anyone deal with this? How have we managed to deal with this time and time again?
Well, I’m drinking and poppin’ dem pills so fark it. I have no control over what you do, just…try to take care of yourself please.
No problem, StruggleOn. You are in my thoughts too. I hope you get the most out of your evening. Whatever that may be. I’ll be sure to toast your friend and the rest of the dearly departed.
Things are ok here, slowly but surely I guess(and hope).
Also, happy ANZAC day, man.Everyone in your country is thankful for your services, massive respect to you.From a future soldier to a veteran, thank you for your services.
Outstanding, keep up the lyrics and such (as always, I will be observing even if I don’t say anything). And thanks man, although I’m not a typical veteran, but from a former serviceman to a future soldier… I wish you all the best *snaps to Attention, Salutes*
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Oh shit. What happen?
Too much to deal with 🙁
Give me the abridged, short n’ skinny version of events if you can?
Well – somebody decided to depart from me to find their place in the ‘other side’, the other day. I didn’t hear for a while, just got a message asking “Could you stay with me until I go?” But I had gone out that day, got home and fell asleep. The next day (a couple days ago) the sister told me what had happened. I thought I could get past it, I have before, but why not again. I can’t stop thinking about it or dreaming about it. But they’re not nightmares. The person was alive, and it was happiness. The scary part is when I wake up and all of that is gone . . . they’re gone. I should have, and I could have done something. Now I’m afraid to leave here.
This means resorting to my bad behaviors which leads to repeatedly fucking things up. I’m just making everything worse.
Oh shit.
I had this happen to me a week ago (American media reports on suicide are really in depth compared to here) so…I understand what you’re going through right now. You have my condolences obviously, I’d put it down to right place and wrong time, but even then I’m not sure. I’m still haunted by this person I lost and their voice… Lawd how does anyone deal with this? How have we managed to deal with this time and time again?
Well, I’m drinking and poppin’ dem pills so fark it. I have no control over what you do, just…try to take care of yourself please.
Mmmm, I’ll be poppin’ prescription pills later tonight for non medicinal use. I got some good ones. Hopefully I can do some real fuck up with ’em.
And thank you, TMS for always caring. I haven’t stopped wishing anything but the best for you.
No problem, StruggleOn. You are in my thoughts too. I hope you get the most out of your evening. Whatever that may be. I’ll be sure to toast your friend and the rest of the dearly departed.
Ight look, i know you’re probably not in the mood for this stuff
And that you’s probably down as fuck because this life’s rough
I know it is, there’s no avoiding it, you can’t just bluff
But this one is for the times where you feel like you had enough
Yo, I know you’re a great person with a heart at the right place
Ready to do a lot to prevent people from leaving without a trace
So sit back and brace yourself, this ain’t gonna be an easy race
But it’ll be all worth it once you’ll look up in the sky and understand
That you have accomplished something marvelous and grand
Until then, i’ll be here to help you keep both of your feet on land
For those times that you feel like keeping going isn’t worth it
I’ll give you all the reasons why it is and put it on a list
Because if you were to go, to me, you’ll be forever missed
You did way more for me that you can imagine, now I gotta give back
For now, all’s I got is this whack rap but I won’t let go, no matter how hard the smack
Hope you’ll do the same, get your life back on the track, hit the gas and never look back
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Side note: TMS, good sir, how are things going for you?
I’m doing okay brother, hope things are good for you too. Nice lyrics by the way. Awesome.
Things are ok here, slowly but surely I guess(and hope).
Also, happy ANZAC day, man.Everyone in your country is thankful for your services, massive respect to you.From a future soldier to a veteran, thank you for your services.
Outstanding, keep up the lyrics and such (as always, I will be observing even if I don’t say anything). And thanks man, although I’m not a typical veteran, but from a former serviceman to a future soldier… I wish you all the best *snaps to Attention, Salutes*