my whole life hasnt been easy it started when I was 2 my dad hung himself in his office at work I dont remember him except this one time we wer watching racing on tv i was on his lap thats all I remember of him then at age 6 my sisters boyfriend touched me I was too young to understand what happened but when he was caught doing it to another kid he was arrested police asked me but I was too scared,of what people would think of me he went to prison for 2 years then at age 8 we moved from my only friend his name was robert ive never seen him since, we did everything together we defended eachother he was like a brother to me then at age 11 we moved to ireland a place where I knew no one and at 12 I lost the ability to talk to others my anxiety is so bad now I can barely talk to strangers now and when I was 14 my brothers ex was living with us and I had always liked her so we dated secretely and I lost my virginity to her then I found out she only ptetended to like me so I would sleep with her and get her pregnabt cos she had lied to people about being pregnant except she didnt get pregnant luckily and when I found out I cried anf that was the last time I cried since then ive been numb inside 🙁 that,was when the major depression started I held it together for 2 years but at 16 I started cutting my wrists because I needed a release so I cut myself then recently at 17 I overdosed I tool all the painkillers I could find and ended up in hospital on a drip to prevent liver damage and here I am still alive 🙁
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We all make mistakes, we all…lose ourselves sometimes and the best thing we can do is learn from these past happenings, adapt them to the remainder of life as lessons learnt and ensure we never repeat them again. I’m not saying that the majority of what you’d written about is a mistake, it’s just it seems you hold some regret with past transgressions. Forget about the girl, seriously. A manipula-***** is the most vile female form I’ve encountered. History tells us that these very same people can bring down entire civilisations; that in itself is reason enough not to let her hoohah bother you any further.
You’re still alive, mate. The task now, soldier, is staying alive (staying alive…ha ha ha ha….staying alive…ive…ieieieiive…ive!) erm…but yeah, good luck to you.
thanks ive found a person who after 1 conversation helped me so much I hope I can help her too
Don’t forget to help yourself in the process, otherwise your efforts are futile.
Ill try
:'(
🙁