I always get on here and just look at everything everyone is saying so I figured I would post something today. I have many scars and a black heart. I miss the way I was before I started cutting myself, but I wouldn’t change a damn thing in my life or anything I have done to myself. The other day I broke down completely in front of the man I thought I could trust completely. I bawled my eyes out for almost an hour because of my f*cked up life and how bad I was feeling about everything. I tried to explained my feelings but failed epically. He looked at me and told me he wished I was happy and he didn’t want a girlfriend that was as f*cked up at I am. This made me pick up my razor and I had to throw it out of a window. I have taken up the new habit o biting my finger as hard as I can without breaking the skin because if I have the pain without the blood I’m hoping it will help me recover from the cutting. I am becoming more and more depressed but trying my hardest to get better. What should I say to him to make him understand that I am just having some trouble right now and need him to be there and hold me when I cry, instead of making me feel like s*it about it all. I just want him to understand that.
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If he doesn’t accept you at your worst he doesn’t deserve you at your best. Take your burdens to Jesus!
“The righteous cry out and The Lord heals them; he delivers them from all their troubles.”
Psalm 34:17
You can’t “make him.” He has to choose what’s right of his own accord. If he chooses wrong, you can either decide he’s not worthy, or you can attempt to offer corrections, to which he may be averse, and may negatively overreact.
If he doesn’t know how to treat you right, and doesn’t want to learn, then there’s not much you can do.