Has anyone else felt alone their whole life? Always the odd one out, outcasted by strangers, friends, and family alike. I’ve grown to realize that I’m not like the others. I’m quiet; I observe everyone around me. And I don’t like what I see. Everyone is so superficial. I see people for what they really are – their flaws, ulterior motives and blind prejudices. I know I have flaws myself but they don’t even compare to what I see in others. Perhaps I am a pessimist; though I like to think I’m a realist.
Every year that goes by, the more I dislike everyone I know. Don’t get me wrong, there are a few people I know who I actually think are good human beings. So I know it’s possible for people to be genuine. That being said, nearly everyone I come across has such fucked up motives and beliefs… I often wonder what humanity is coming to – why is there hardly anyone else out there like me, the ones who see the world for what it really is? I’m struggling with reality because I truly feel alone. Is there anyone out there who can relate or is it me who is fucked up?
~confused~
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I’m alone more often than not though I have friends too. I’m not silent and nor do I observe people like you do though. I think I’m just weird :3.
I still think there is lots of good in the world and people.
I have made the same observation,
You are not alone.
Read some Schopenhauer, read up on Gnosticism. Rewatch the Matrix trilogy very carefully, as well as the Animatrix.
Pay really close attention to what is going on around you in your life, and read up on the concept of synchronicity.
You are in a minority, but you are not alone.
Thank you for the suggestions! I’m familiar with Gnosticism, but not so much Schopenhauer or synchronicity. I actually haven’t seen any of the Matrix trilogy, so I will get on that.
That last sentence means a lot.
Gnosticism? (previous commenter) That’s pretty heavy stuff. St. Augustine disposed of it as heresy back in the 4th century, but I guess life moved on so Augustine himself has been dropped, more or less, by now. We don’t live in the “City of God” anymore.
My own motives are as fucked up as anyone else’s. I can’t really see the world for what it really is. The world is a pretty big place, so I get to see only a tiny lambchop of it. A lot of it seems trying to get by for another day, by hook or shepherd’s crook. The sheep in my head stray, but I pull them back in with that crook if I can. (The curved part of the crook grabs their neck to do this.)
Welcome here, if this is your first time posting, as it appears it might be. All the best to you.
I take it you’re a history buff? That’s pretty interesting stuff. Props to you for recognizing that your motives are no better than anyone else’s. I’m not sure if I’m in denial, but I really do feel that what I’ve seen in others is far worse than what I’ve seen in myself. That’s why I have a strong desire to travel the world, as I’m sure there are better people in other cultures.
Thank you! This is indeed my first post. I was a member here a couple years back but only commented on others’ posts; I never posted my own.
I have also felt alone my entire life. But that’s because everyone I know goes away… I’ve also always been the shy quiet girl sitting alone in the back, observing. And of course, thinking way to much. Making it difficult to befriend others. Still, People that call themselves friends and family have all abandoned me. I had a baby boy who passed away recently …just when I thought that life now had meaning. Becoming a mother was the best thing ever. What more does this world want from me? And everyday I see selfish neglectful parents that don’t deserve to have children. They put on an act for other adults, pretending to be good, anxious to have a night out without the kids, treating them like burdens. When here I sit, going mad cause I can’t be with my boy..just one more minute.. So to everyone in this world: Fuck You All. Cause a good majority of you are selfish superficial assholes.
Wow, I am truly sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine the pain you must be experiencing. That’s exactly how I feel though – the majority of humans are selfish, superficial assholes who put on an act. But at the same time, I do believe there are people out there who aren’t like that at all, and are instead like you and I. We’re a rare breed; we just have to find each other.
Thank you. After my son passed I think I just…gave up on life..on people. I’m now at the point where i can barely even go outside anymore. Depression & anxiety overwhelms me. Images haunt me. But I ‘m meeting with a psychiatrist next week & hopefully can get on some meds. Cause I cannot continue to do this alone. And like others on this site…my suicide attempt goddamned failed me. >.<
And, yes, there are few genuine people out there…very hard to find. But do exist.