Oh its been so long
So very very long
Since the last time
I talked to you
About everything thats going on
I know I’ve been vague
I’ve been mysterious
But I have to keep things
Feelings thoughts etc
From you
So you don’t worry about me
But maybe it’s time
Time to tell you how I am.
How am I?
Physically?
Sore.
I feel broken.
I’ve got a few scars.
Yeah from that.
I don’t know how to cope.
I thought I could manage
I guess not.
How am I?
Mentally?
Terrible.
Awful.
Horrible.
Every day criticism.
Yelling.
Slapping.
One of my lights went out.
I have one left.
But it’s dimming.
Once it goes out
I’ll die.
Is that sad to me?
No it’s not.
It’ll be the push I need.
So
How am I?
The truth?
Broken.
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Broken < Unserviceable
The difference between the above two is that something or someone who is merely 'broken' can be remedied and put back into service. Whereas an 'unserviceable' or 'U/S' individual or item is disposed of due to no foreseeable solution existing or at all possible.
I know it's hard to open up after being so closed in for a while, but every now and then we need to remind ourselves that as humans we crave companionship. It does have its benefits, even with the emotional and mental distress it can bring. If you do have that one special person to confide in, please do so. You are worth the effort and hardship to at least attempt a hot fix to your broken state and who knows; maybe we can permanently patch it for good.
Have a great day, LetItGo. You're in my thoughts. 🙂