hi everybody my name is guy. A few hours ago I lost the only thing that really made me happy. I dont know if I should cry or end it right know. I know you guys think she is just another female but she’s not. One guy on sp once told me there’s millions of beautiful females out there but I only want her. That smile, the sound she makes at the beginning of her laugh, her logic. I want her to be the one I have a family with. I cant believe I won’t be able to kiss her again or even hug her. My head feels like its about to explode just thinking of someone else touching her , or giving her a cute nickname or even calling her babe. I dont want to live without, I dont think I can. I dont think a mans heart should feel like this. Why would god give you something so special but turn around and take it from u. Why is life so cruel. Why couldn’t dying be as easy as crying. I cant lie to myself I do love you, I will always love. Why did I have to meet you. I feel like I’m in hell I dont even believe in hell. If someone actually read this far thank you. I love you mpc
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MPC: I’ve never found a way to dull that pain you’re talking about. And looking back on my own life, pain like that obliterated life for me, never diminishing. But I want you to know I heard you–and I know a lot of other people will be reading your post, relating to your honestly shared feelings, and caring for you–because we can relate. I don’t know what the f*kc any of this is about. But at least we can support each other through the s#!t. If you need to yell or explode or just talk about the Mariner’s epic Superbowl win this year as distraction, hit me up by email.
Peace, brother.
I hear you.
You’re not gonna like what I say and if this was FaceBook you wouldn’t click “like”, but what you described is not love. What you described is clinging, obsession, preoccupation, selfish needing, but not love. What about her feelings in all this?
That old saying comes to mind..If you love someone, set them free. If they come back they’re yours; if they don’t they never were.
Eah, whatever Randall. I’d throw a dozen likes your way! Well said, sir. Those were my first thoughts upon previewing this post from the home page. The difference with…“this” and love is that…if this were love, you’d be *doing* everything you mentioned, not procrastibating over it. Be thankful you got out of that relationship while you did, as you still have a chance to fulfil all your wildest dreams.
Okay, here’s two options for you to consider:
1 – “Seize the initiative”. Pursue this “MPC” person of your’s and enthrall them with your vision of a shared future. If she has even an inkling of love for you, she will recoil and embark on that journey with you. Out-fuckin’-standing.
2 – “As you were”. Disregard this fling and carry on with whatever you were doing prior to meeting her. These wounds will heal over time, just don’t let them fester.
All I have, mate. Best of luck out there.