Really stupid reasons

So I think the one thing I am proudest of is how much of a geek i am (LARP D&D video games etc…) heres the thing i havnt had the time to attend any of my games lately because of real life responsibilities

To get a feeling for me as a person im 25 i live with a super good looking girl who i somehow convinced to date me a few years ago and i just started a great job that is allowing me to get out of the factories ive worked in since i was 17… but because I dont have time to go to these stupid games or cons i honestly spend around 3t hours a day romanticizing the idea of taking my own life.

Now to be honest my girl has a bit to do with me not doing the things i love doing , but only in the sense that she dosnt drive or cook so im needed around to do these things so if we both dont have off the same weekend essentially no one gets to go.

These stupid geeky things like LARP D&d comics (honestly any fantasy i can escape into) are the only thing that makes life bearable… but i dont have the time to REALLY devote to going to a game or going to a con… and i dont know i just feel silly being so upset ALL the time over something so stupid

Figured this would be a good place to vent
all will be well