does anyone constantly feel like they want to run away, although there is nowhere to run to? feel so lost, like u dont belong in this society, in the world? everyday is just a constant battle not to hop on a bus and run far away from my family. i love them but i cant stand being with them. i cant stand anyone for too long. cant hold a job, have no desires in this world. i want to run away but anywhere i go will just be the same as here. i want to die, but i dont want to kill myself. i just want to simply not exist anymore
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Likewise.
Agreed, I want to just disappear in a crowd
I feel the same exact way! Just disappearing!!…the unknown is just so scary! I feel as if I as if the only reason why I’m still around is because I’m afraid of the pain from dying, I am afraid of what awaits me on the other side and I’m afraid of dying alone!
Nevertheless, I feel your pain!
There have been entire religious and philosophical systems built on this feeling. My advice; read Hans Jonas’s The Gnostic Religion, but skip the first chapter on Hellenism (it’s boring).
I did run away. After my psychotic break I ran away from everything. I was actually homeless for over a year until my parents found me and I came home…. but I’m 27 I should be on my own yet I have no desire to do anything. I just want to die.
I was actually happier when I was homeless and ran away. My situation fit my emotions and somehow I didn’t feel this horrible depression I do now.
I wish I were dead also..
Maybe we should form a club — I’m not joking. Maybe there is something about us, about our brains I mean, that make us feel this way.
I was voluntarily homeless (lived in my car) for three months between apartments/relationships, and I was never happier.
If I could just live a simple life with limited contact with others except by my own choice, and with no obligations (and without starving, unwashed and begging on the streets), I’d be happy.
wow thats crazy to hear, im homeless too, and i actually sort of like it. isnt that weird? and now im seeing 2 other peopple who like it too. id love to form a club. meet like minded people