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The thing that i hate about therapy is that every time you walk in the first thing they ask you is “how do you feel today?” and honestly when my therapist asks me that question i can never find the answer to it. I do not know how i feel, i am left speechless from such a simple question. Every time they tell me there is something wrong with me, i feel like i am an outcast, being left out from many things because of my depression, taking two different kinds of pills just so i can be normal? What is that? Taking pills to be normal, that makes no sense what so ever. Well to me anyways not sure about the rest of society. Depression is just getting to me, cutting is a daily routine. Contemplating suicide is a daily routine. All the adversity in my life replays over and over again. It sickens me what i had to go through and that i can not change it. I don’t know what to do anymore with myself. This is just the beginning of a horrible nightmare. I am scared to get to the end of it …

Sincerely, Deadtragedy.