I am looking for a way to commit suicide easily but i didn’t find a way. there is always hard to find a easy way even for dying. Life never give us easy choices, Life is giving me hard choices live with regrets as a looser or die. are these only options or there is another option but i can’t see it because there is so much darkness around me. maybe there is some other way , trying to find new hope trying to push my self for keep fighting not to loose hope. every day i wake up for finding new hope and every night i end up with loosing hope. i don’t know when will i completely loose hope and when will end up my life. but there is something holding me back. keeping me away from the sin (sin of committing suicide) like is said life never gives you easy way to choose.
another day has passed. stars are still bright and telling me keep holding you will be there. you are not the only one who is alone in this world. At-least this beautiful nature is with me. stars , moon , rain , greenery , birds , flowers. these things makes me feel i am not the only person who is alone. but this also gives me motivation towards my life. they are alone but they all are bright , happy and so much beautiful. Being alone doesn’t mean you don’t have right to be happy or bright. yeah! still i have positive thoughts in me. maybe this is holding me back.
Time to go! Good night my DDD.
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I just want you to know Flora that what you said about the stars, rain, moon and nature being alone yet bright and happy rang a bell with me…I am more and more having to accept and face my (to me) terrible loneliness, and what you said is comforting and true. The irony is that here we all are, so many of us, feeling so alone, and yet we are never less so…loneliness is a pandemic these days and it can truly drive you insane if you let it.