This is my first. I just have to get it out. All the reasons I hate myself. They make you believe that the happy pills will make it all better. I’ve been on them for three months, and here I am. Still depressed, still alone, still misunderstood. The main reason I hate myself is because I’m addicted to porn. All you people who are gonna say it’s natural shut the hell up and look somewhere else. I don’t care if it’s natural. I don’t care if the freaking pope did it. He’s not me. Do you know what it’s like to be called disgusting by the woman who gave birth to you? Maybe you do. I don’t think anyone else should kill themselves. For those who think that’s hard to believe, you don’t belong on this site. I hate myself because I looked at my cousin’s ass. I LOOKED AT THE ONE PERSON IN THE WHOLE DAMN WORLD WHO GIVES A RAT’S ASS ABOUT ME AND MADE THEM INTO A SEXUAL OBJECT. I’m that deep into porn. Every single girl I see I instantly look at breasts, butt, then maybe their face. It tears piece of my soul away.
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boobs happen
I wanted to reply to your other post, but, of course, it wouldn’t let me. I wanted to say thank you for the advice, I overreacted. I’m probably going to go with that. You may have changed my life jk.
ninnie
You’ll probably be fine if you just relax and lighten up sometimes. I don’t see why you’re so distressed.
I don’t really understand this as being such a big problem as you’re saying it is. Maybe you’re thinking too much into it?
If you really feel so concerned with how much porn you watch, then there are loads of therapists about specialising in sexuality. It might be worth your time to investigate into it!
@OP if u want Coles notes of CNs dissertation refer to my comment. adequately sums it up. (;
There’s nothing wrong with noticing another person. I would guess that a lot of people have the same thoughts as you, they just don’t talk about it. I also think that most people’s private thoughts wouldn’t stand up to public scrutiny. “Thinking” about something isn’t the same as actually “doing” it.
My friend’s wife developed 38DD breasts when she was around 16. She told me that males had great difficulty maintaining eye contact with her during conversations for most of her life. Most of the guys who talked to her weren’t looking into her eyes as they spoke. Want to guess what they were looking at?
Being observant doesn’t make you a freak, and there’s nothing wrong with having a healthy imagination just so long as you don’t cross the line and impose yourself on an unwilling individual.
hey jackass I’m 13 and i spend literally hours on porn i pretty much hate my mother and guess what it is an addiction i’ve been in and out of counseling for three years trying to get over it
u mad bro? *troll face*
CNs just trying to help you out. we all are in our own way. eat the meat spit out the bones. or in your case pick the scene you want to watch and forgo the rest meaning take the advice that applies and leave the stuff that doesn’t. don’t get riled friend.
Do you have some sort of compulsive personality?
^ to OP
I’ll retract the “mama’s boy” thing, since you’re only 13, and i suppose that’s still acceptable at that age.
But your mother shouldn’t be “disgusted” by your completely natural interest in sexuality. And if she is… that’s ultimately her problem, and doesn’t need to become yours.
Some people try to “demonize” sexuality. I don’t recommend sharing their perspective. Those same people often promote violence and injustice, if passively and/or indirectly. ^^
Either way, it’s very unlikely that you’ll “get over” your natural attraction tendencies, so it really doesn’t make sense for anyone to try to make you feel like you should, or that you should ever feel guilty about it.
Just try to practice moderation.
And don’t get “caught.” What mom doesn’t know, can’t disgust her.
(rolls eyes) all mothers know what happens with their teenage boys, come on now… it’s not a big deal unless you set yourself on fire about it.
Different people have different guidelines concerning what’s acceptable regarding sex.
There are people who think that sex is a procreative function that should only be practiced if you’re married and in love with your spouse.
There are people who believe that sex is a pleasurable, recreational activity which doesn’t require the participants to be in love.
There are people who think that exchanging sex for money is wrong, while others have no problem paying their p*rtner for services rendered.
There are probably more perspectives than just those, but you don’t have to let somebody else’s assertions on propriety dictate your self worth.
I’ve talked to women who can’t understand why men go to strip clubs. They believe these men are pigs. Many women also can’t understand why men enjoy hunting, sports, cars/trucks/motorcycles, or any other pursuit that the woman has zero interest in.
Don’t worry about people who disapprove of your interests. As long as you’re not actively hurting anybody or breaking the law, you’re fine.
You mentioned that you’re 13. Once upon a time the internet didn’t exist. Back in the olden days, people your age had a harder time finding porn. You had to raid your bachelor uncle’s secret stash of Playboys hidden away in his closet. Today accessing porn is much easier. I can understand how a 13 year old would have difficulty exercising self control.
Good luck.
thanks I’m sorry about being pissy at you you seem to actually be a cool person that understands. Thank you for your insight.
FYI – your mum is a hypocrite – she had to engage in those “disgusting acts” to have a child … pot calling the kettle black so to speak – just sayin. Listen to CN – he is wise.
biology dawg