Hey, like alot of you im at the end of my rope
it would take ages for me to explain myself, so instead i have a simple favor to ask
can anyone provide me a good way of looking at death, a way of coming to terms with it
because as of now the only thing stopping me from killing myself is the fear of what nothingness will be like
dont tell me its like sleeping, that scares me even more
in particular i am seeking advice from someone who has meditated heavily and has been in a death-like state before
tl;dr i need to come to peace with death so i can kill myself
any and all feedback is welcome
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It doesn’t sound like it’s your time my friend.
its been mine time since i was in 2nd grade
ive attempted before, but only with pills
i follow the philosophy that i can only die once so i better make it worth it
i plan on dying in a very…. scary way
and if by it not being my time you meant i must be kidding because im not a bleeding heart whining on here
well, then i geuss i dont know what to tell ya
I’m not accusing or judging you in any way. It just doesn’t seem like you’re at the stage were you’re truly ready to die yet, so I’d be scared of helping you towards it.
“tl;dr i need to come to peace with death so i can kill myself”
That’s exactly how i felt… until i actually came to terms with it.
Now, i don’t really want to do it, and anything that pushes me in that direction just really pisses me off, because it makes me feel that same agonizing despair that feels like it’s compelling me to exit, not because i think i need to die, but because so much of the world sucks so bad that i don’t want to be part of it at all… and death is the only way i can think of, to really be separate from all this intolerable outrage.
“in particular i am seeking advice from someone who has meditated heavily and has been in a death-like state before”
I’ve actually been here before as well…
“dont tell me its like sleeping, that scares me even more”
You’re not going to like my answer to that… it’s worse.
There are basically 3 ways to die:
1) scared and agonized
2) suddenly and confused
3) peacefully in your sleep
thanks for your input
Put two shotguns to your head (preferably one to each eye), pull the triggers simultaneously (hell, one by itself is almost as good), and I guarantee you’ll do there won’t be any time for the confusion part of your second option.
Note: not “discussing methods” here, just responding to a point.
I feel the same way as you… at first there was a sense of relief when I decided I’d commit suicide and now as I linger around and procrastinate I find no comfort in life OR the idea of death. Can I borrow your brain for a second (not sarcasm – I’ve read your posts and know you’re really smart)… is my method of injecting heroin and falling from a large height a good and painless method? I’m afraid there’s going to be some detail that I’ve overlooked or that I won’t die instantly.
I’ve pretty much given up on the idea of a comfortable death. Plus, i’ve never been fond of heights or needles, so… can’t say i’d recommend such a thing. I wouldn’t think H would be necessary if you’re jumping… and if you’re still conscious upon impact, i doubt the H would do much to counteract that type and amount of pain. You might even sober up on the way down from adrenaline. (speculating)
For me, it’s all about being prepared for that final moment, whatever/however/whenever it may come. Meanwhile, i figure i should do stuff… even if that ends up being words on websites that probably won’t change much in the grand scheme.
I’ve always been a bit curious about heroin, but i wouldn’t want to live with the addiction part, and it’s inevitable if you use it. So… i wouldn’t want to do it unless i knew the end was approaching for sure, or unless i knew i could maintain it, should i change my mind and keep living. I’d also worry that even if i thought i was sure i was going to exit soon enough, i might just end up enjoying it too much and change my mind. Then i’d be stuck living with physical addiction, and that would suck. Dealing with tobacco addiction is already hard enough.
There are basically 3 ways to die:
1) scared and agonized
2) suddenly and confused
3) peacefully in your sleep
How to induce a peaceful death while sleeping? Is that possible? I think that’s what people are aiming for when they od on sleeping pills, etc. but I think that normally leads to waking up while vomiting the pills, doesn’t it?
I wish it were as simple as going to sleep and not waking up, but I fear the Universe is not done with us yet and won’t be cheated out of its pound of flesh. We have to live with the consequences of our actions, including suicide. But there is also boundless compassion. No eternal hellfire – that’s garbage. Researching near death experiences can be enlightening, but screen out the born again Christians. Sorry I can’t be more helpful…I wish you the best.
I think you may be over-complicating things. If, as I believe, death is non-existence, then to figure out what death is like, ask yourself, what was it like before you were born? How did you “feel” then? What was that “like”?
Don’t be afraid of it. The feeling of “being” after death is the same as “being” before life. What did it feel like in the billions of years before your birth? You don’t. So you won’t know the billions of years after your death. You won’t be aware that you’re dead, you just cease to exist. I find it quite relaxing, myself.